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I felt a lot better after writing my last post, that I figure I'd try the whole writing thing once more ( Read more... )

I'm writing because I am feeling emotionally overwhelmed, and hey, here's a place to let it out. It's hard to figure out just what it is, it feels mostly like a strong tension in my chest, an exhaustion from being so confused, and a feeling of intense desire. I can't concentrate on doing my school reading. Isn't it pathetic how I am really ( Read more... )

Happy Solstice!!!

yay! It's awesome to be back home. Listening to music on real speakers is amazing. Playing guitar on my inappropriately large amp is amazing. Seeing my friends is amazing. Being vegetarian again is...not really that amazing, but whatever. Drinking Natty Boh is amazing. The honeymoon phase of culture shock is amazing. Going up to New York to visit ( Read more... )

I feel like no matter what I do, no matter what situation I'm in, I can never reach what I want. I can never find that joy, or peace-of-mind. A dream, a very real dream, always out of reach. But I can't give it up, it's the only thing that gives me hope. I'm in a culture I can't relate to. I'm every day learning about the revolting situation of ( Read more... )

Recently we've been learning about the issues of sexuality in Mexico, specifically queer sexuality. Although, I have to be careful when I use the term "queer", and to be sure to qualify what I mean by that. To me, queer represents the rainbow or continuum of non-heterosexual sexualities, somewhat of an umbrella term. In Mexico and many other non ( Read more... )

I'm in Mexico, but not really. i miss all my close relationships at home. I miss hugs. I miss bicycling. I miss watching Flight of the Conchords with all my friends. I miss intimacy. I miss tears. I miss all the quirks that connect us as friends. I miss community. I miss Natty fuckin Boh. I miss your eyes looking into mine. I miss summer ( Read more... )

This week I spent four days at Heathecote, an intentional community in northern maryland, with my awesome friend Harriet. It was amazing, definitely the most enjoyable weekend of my summer. We did a lot of gardening, sheet mulching, cooking and eating delicious organic vegetarian meals, yoga, making jam from berries we picked, swimming in the ( Read more... )

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