all of this time, i just sit here and wonder .. why me? why does god want me to be so unhappy? what did i do to deserve this? i feel like im trying soo hard to be good, and im jsut getting punished. my eyes hurt from crying, my head hurts from thinking about it, my lungs hurt from breathing. mabye i should just put myself out of this misery and ( Read more... )

i HATE my parents .. HATE them HATE them HATE them. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. i cant be in my house any longer. im gunna go fucking crazy. seriously.

i need advice:
1) down a bottle of sleeping pills
OR
2) run away

WOW! .. im an idiot. its my first day of summer school and im hungover!! oh well, it was worth it for last night. such an awesome god damn night. wow. life is good.

ill update more later =]

School is almost over. i cant wait. i am just dying waiting for the day to come .. i dont even know what to do with myself anymore. and who knows, i might not even have a car this summer. and if i dont, i really dont know what im going to do with myself. my parents have decided that they are going to put me into a "rehab" .. which is kinda crazy. ( Read more... )

HEyy!! okay, so i havent updated in a while .. first of all, i cant really type very well because i broke my right index fingernail, and i jsut got it fixed - so is a little sore .. lol ANYWAYS, Ret is on his way over =] which is very very exciting! and im watching the O.C and Marissa is about to overdose, and its quite exciting! lol .. anyways, i ( Read more... )

so im still a little sick ( Read more... )

soo .. randomly - brandon texted me last night .. he was like "hey, whats up?" .. then a while later,he goes "you dont have to text back i jsut thoguht id say hey" .. i didnt get it until this morning - and i texted him back .. its really annoying, because as soon as i start to like someone - the EX comes back into my life. i mean, i highly doubt ( Read more... )

yet another unnecessasary lj entry ( Read more... )

OMGGGG i fucking hate being sick ( Read more... )

"i dont got money ( Read more... )