new york is just the slap in the face that i needed right now ( Read more... )

milena says 'oh, we are so young!' why do i feel so old? like i'm running out of time? tick tick tick went my watch in my ear and i laid awake all morning, after the 6am return, with chemicals in my head and no desire to sleep ( Read more... )

happy barfday.
danced at rosi's.
laid in hangover at treptower park.
today i sang for alain's song.
now i have to write essays and try to get keys copied.
life is grand.

if i were to believe in past lives, i would say that i was nietzsche in a past life ( Read more... )

working hard. i'm gonna get everything i fucking want.

insides quivering like china plates, this instability is getting me down. when you have hopes, or wishes or dreams, that means you can lose them. they might explode. they might just be blown away like a bit of paper in the wind as your whole being screams NO and time slows down for a moment, then they're gone. like they never existed. then the ( Read more... )

the most beautiful and insane place in berlin is gone. how can that be? it lived for seven years before the police found it, before the landlord noticed, or the neighbors complained. karmanoia, the home of all crazy artistic ideas, where ideals were everyday life and nothing was impossible. there, nothing was strange because everything was strange ( Read more... )

it's almost 3am and somehow everything here has changed ( Read more... )

scatterbrain.

puking all day and feeling like shit is the best way to get ready for applying for a new visa. take it from me. i'm an expert ( Read more... )