so a big ha ha ho ho hee hee to the newly re-founded strange and high powered rocket fuel which i knew was living somewhere in my person. i'd misplaced it, but i've regained it i think. self improvement can do that for a body. so can getting over a cold/tetanus induced weakness. talked to the dude i work for, who is a psychologist, about d.i.y self ( Read more... )

i wake up, i'm hung over. my wrist doesn't really want to move. shit. i go to the doctor, a sweet old woman, who takes one look and says 'oh, a lovely cat that bit you without brushing its teeth. you need a tetanus shot.' fuck. no. please. i've never had a shot in my life! i start freaking out. she says that they'll bandage it and i need ( Read more... )

my friend simon just got a cat, a really cute one, all black, from an animal shelter near the polish border. the cat is definitely polish, her name is masha- the first thing she does is bite me, really bad. of course ( Read more... )

sooooo.... nearly getting arrested for having a fake train ticket is way fun. let me explain- my roommate left for india and gave me his month pass. nice, right? except that it was forged and on the first stop got controlled. oh yes. my luck is amazing. i argued with the controller in my best german because i was very sure that this was a mistake ( Read more... )

fire in the oven and my room is warm. the whole building smells of burning wood and coal, cozy and inviting. we'll hibernate for the winter and hang out with the neighbors and drink in the dark. it creeps in, this winter dark, thick and blanketing, it dampers even the electric lights. we huddle together, speak softly, move slower. the daylight ( Read more... )

you know how you feel when you have to sneeze, but you can't? my brain feels that way. i want something to snap and relieve the pressure, but it doesn't. instead i have mood swings and panic attacks, i have terrible nightmares that are real even after i wake up, alone in the dark with my big window next to me and the moon shining in its remote way ( Read more... )

currently my days and nights usually include loud music, dancing, weird food being cooked, scenes being acted out, cold weather, smoking joints, a digeridoo, singing, painting, babies, dogs, rain, leaves changing color, the city trains, jumping on trampolines, strange films, drinking sternies, learning german and general silliness of all shapes and ( Read more... )

so being an artist's assistant means sometimes smoking copious amounts of weed, sitting around, eating pasta and watching natural born killers ( Read more... )

SLACKER SLACKER SLACKER SLACKER. SLACKER ( Read more... )

autopilot. stringing sentences is now difficult. fried brain last night. hope to soon recover. roger roger, over and out.