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[dance_inxmisery]

The first day of school was pretty much exactly what I expected.

So, all summer I was upset because I felt like NONAMEDROPPING didn't make time for me, which I talked to her about. Except I really didn't feel like it changed. Because she never called me or anything. And it was kind of like... someone dying... for me. It was so terrible. And I cried

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[itsscubaman]

its most likely attributed to the fact that everyone will do anything to feel good. Everyone is searching for the one thing that will bring them peace and help them to be happy. For most, it is things like being the best, getting the best and beating the best. What most people dont realize until after the fact, is that it is these things which we think will bring on the good food mood that are actually leaving us with an ever growing desire to attain that feeling of gratification. It is seemingly impossible to be happy and be human. But with the Everlasting and Almighty God things are different.

[dance_inxmisery]

That's what confuses me so much. People are striving for perfection to be happy; but in the process they're continuously dissapointed and hurt. My question is why, knowing this, we keep trying and keep striving for something that doesn't exist.

I wish everyone (including me, because I tend to buy into it all as well) could just find alternative ways of feelings good and loved, like God. And that it would be completely enough, and never waver.

I think I worded that wrong, it doesn't read write.
But I think you might know what I'm trying to say.

[poettree13]

oh my god i totally agree. i don't stress about facebook stuff, but with school this year i felt SO PRESSURED to take EVERYTHING and push myself SO HARD but after a little while i realized.... it's not really worth it. so what that i'm not taking AP? will one stupid class really affect what college i go to? and what does it matter what college i go to as long as i work to my best advantage? mr. pasieka was talking today and he said that some people take random AP tests and pass them with flying colors, even without taking any classes. and that's exactly how life is... ya gotta work for what you want and even if your situation isn't as good as others it'll come to you. and i used to HATE how i looked, i'd freak out and wear really big clothes and stuff, but i've finally gotten to the point where i actually am starting to see the beauty in myself and it's really amazing the difference it makes.

[dance_inxmisery]

I'm so glad you at least are one of the few who is moving past the lie of perfection, aha.

Now if I could only manage to stop doing it...

[die_in_a_comedy]

so yeah. it's me. if it's not im retarded.
honestly, i was like JOEJEJOOEJOEJOEJEOO I DONT CAR ABOUT ANYTHING ELSE!
and i knew i was hurting you and being a giant jerk, but i couldnt stop. you probably can understand why i was like that, even though i was still a bad bfffff.
i feel terrible because the situation seems like 'well now that joe is gone, ill hang out with ally!...and i guess that kind of is it...i feel like such a dick saying that, but its the harsh truth.
except, i have this new found faith in my relationship with Joe..and now that Im not scared im going to lose him soon, i can go back to normal just with Joe involved too.
i love you and im really really glad you chose to be the bigger person and go to me. i had this whole huge conversation planned out for me to have with you, but you jumped right back in. thanks for really being my best friend. i swewwwaaaarrrr ill start being a better one again.

[dance_inxmisery]

Aw, I'm so glad you took it like this.
I was kind of worried you'd be mad I put it on LJ, which is why I wrote that thing at the end.

It would be really easy for me to be like "No, I don't understand. You shouldn't be like that." But I really do understand, because being in love with somebody makes you want to spend all your time with them. I do understand that... if Seth lived here... wow. Aha. I wish it was different and everyone could be with everyone they want all the time, but you know... there's only 24hrs in a day.

I'm glad I didn't go through with my original plan of being stubborn and waiting for you, because I would've tortured myself. And I'm glad you still can call me your best friend :]

I can't wait to start hanging out with you again, I lovvveeeee youuuuu :]

OH, and I'm really glad you have your new found confidence in your relationship with Joe. I hope you guys stay together forever and happy and stuffs. <3