i just need someone to hold my hand and tell me it is going to be ok. i know life goes on, blah blah...but it hurts and i just need someone.

i do, i do really love him and think it is over. my heart hasnt been this bruised in a long time...it just stinks to know that there is nothing i can do.

this just cant be how this ends..

i need you.

all i need is someone to hold my hand right now. or tell me it is going to be ok and to just catch my breath. this year has been too much for me to handle. i have lost some important people to me and that is just scratching the surface. and my love, i dont even know what to do about that. i need him in my life. i feel so out of control that it is ( Read more... )

Halloween is a hard time for me. brings up too many happy memories that i do not like to relive because it just reminds me how much i do and will always miss those people.

"every now and then, we find that special friend who never lets us down. who understands it all reaches out each time we fall. your the best friend that ive found. i know you can't stay but part of you will never, ever go away. your heart will stay. ill make a wish for you, and hope it will come true, that life would just be kind to such a gentle ( Read more... )

i dont believe in most things any more. if there is a higher power, why is there so much suffering. why would "he, it, they," let a young man die so suddenly. all he needed was one more breath, he just needed a little help. he wasnt a crazed criminal or suffering from a crippling disease he just needed to catch his breath. he was too kind. he ( Read more... )

yes i know it is weird. i am just afraid. i know that nothing last forever. my new thing is not to get too attatched. if i dont, then it wont be as hard when it has to end. call me pesimistic, but i call it safe.

i think about nathan everyday. he made such an impact in my life. i know i should be at peace by now, but i am just not.

sometimes time doesnt heal, no not at all. it just stands still...

"where can you run when its always all around you. and the feeling lost and found you again...a feeling that we have no control."

...underneath it all there is a heart all alone....

just holding onto things i dont have anymore.

i need to just suck it up a agree that life will never be the same.