i think im going crazy. i cant stand being around people.... but i get so lonely when i am alone....

i knew when my mom called that something was wrong. my grandpa died. of a heart attaack. in front of my brother and grandma. and i am so alone. i have no one to hug. no one to talk to. my parents are on the other side of the earth. im not going to be able to go to the funeral. i am stuck here. alone. i need a hug. i need someone to tell me its ok. ( Read more... )

how can life throw so many unexpected things at you in such a small time? i really dont like feeling all thesee emotions at once, they just sit in my tummy and fight and just will not become friends ( Read more... )

i dont really

hello everyone, i guess i havent updated in a little while so here goes, actually i dont know where to start, hmmm so i have met my future husband, so that is cool, i can check off one thing on my list for life. although he doesnt know it yet, and i have only met him once and dont quite remember his name he is going to the oasis concert and i am ( Read more... )

so basically i hate it here...fuck spain bring me home to my friends and my bed

well hmm... so today we had swimming and we had to go to the swiming pool and i really dont feel like typeing right now....lol be back later

so i have just finished my first weekend in spain and i have to say it doesnt compare to emilys house or safeway runs at all. friday night i hung out with david and his friends and walked aroung the little town we live in and it was horrible. actually it was ok except for the fact that i couldnt understand what they were talking about and i felt ( Read more... )

so today was pretty good i have to say. im going to try and be more positive about everything. hmmm so i had latin first period and let me tell you all i leard was that i have exactly 35 freckles on my left hand. i just cant belive that i was stuck in this class since i dont know spanish or latin and we have a test tommorow and that is going to be ( Read more... )

well today was my thursay of school and i have to say that i didnt go to the wrong class thank god. but what i did do was forget all about my pe cloths so i had to sit on the side of the gym and watch everyone else run around while i was alone and getting stared at for an hour. wow i just have to say that everyone showers at this school after pe ( Read more... )