i like doing my own thing ( Read more... )

this weekend has been amazing.
one of the best ever.

thurs was good and bad.
had a good day @ school.
hung with my girl hayley.
played pictionary.
went to a bar?
ran into friends who i love.
later ended up crying
and hurting a lot.
then my friends picked me back up
[emotionally].

( friday )

seriously...get over yourself ( Read more... )

i am really happy for some reason.
i'm not sure why.

i hung out with some old friends last night.
friends from middle school/high school.
it was nice to see them!
we had a lot of fun...just sitting and talking.
i loved it.
it's good not to forget where you came from.

i loooove this weather.

i'm happy.

last night was so ...random. and weird ( Read more... )

listening to smashing pumpkins always makes me think of shane ( Read more... )

there is nothing worse than wanting something you can't have!
it hurts reallllly REALLY bad.
i just want him to love me and not HER!
"[i'm] not letting go of this one."

today i ran a 5K (3 mile) race in los angeles ( Read more... )

sooo i am studying in the library today...
and i see ryan.
he comes and says hi.
i did better this time.

later i see him outside.
we both had time to kill,
so we talked for like 45 min!

me: "soooo do you have a girlfriend?"
[in my mind-"say no!!! say no!!!"]
ryan: "yeah"

i felt like i someone had stabbed me in my heart!

me: "oh that's cool"[in ( Read more... )

i officially gave up drinking.
i'm pretty over it.
i'm not drinking til jan 7th, 2006!