so.. wow. where to start bitching ( Read more... )

summers here.. has been for like a week. and i cant say that i dont enjoy going to work instead of school. cus honestly i seriously do. and i cant say that i dont enjoy sleeping instead of running all night and never sleeping. cus i do. the only thing thats gettin to me is dance isnt here. and when dance does come. ill be in the bahamas. i really ( Read more... )

so today, i look up, and theres the senior in the window of my classroom with his best friend, opening the door. unnaturally, my heart starts beating faster, i start shaking. for no reason. i havnt talked to this boy in maybe a month, 3 weeks maybe? he had dropped off the face of the earth for all i knew. or "cared". and all on account of that he ( Read more... )

so ive been noticing little things bout my body that i cant stand. certain pants dont fit right on me, or i just look disgusting, and everyone tells me that i havnt gained weight, but im sayin a good 10-15 pounds i have. its disgusting. i really hate it, with everything. from now on im goin on a strict ass diet, and gonna go to the gym every minute ( Read more... )

i guess this is just becoming a place where i can vent when things need to be let off my chest, that i really just dont wanna tell no one.. yea ( Read more... )

i guess the hardest thing is to realize youve wasted all this time on someone who doesnt care bout you. im not good enough for him, how many times have i heard that? my whole life.ive never been good enough for any boy. ive just always been that girl everyone uses and then expects me to be there to pick up there pieces when there world comes ( Read more... )

I found a couple poems, sonnets and shit ive written for various reasons about shit that happened or inspired me. i dont write anymore, and i was young. bear with me. there not great. first 2 are about one boy, last is about another ( Read more... )

Write ten things in no particular order that make you happy and tag five others:

1.) Sleeping
2.) Dance
3.) Work
4.) Family
5.) Friends
6.) Getting things done
7.) Driving
8.) Elmo
9.)The beach
10.) Writing

And I tag Julz, Kip, Liz, Lindsey, and Vera

So i deleted all my entries a little bit ago, figured, i want to forget the past and forgive myself for everything in it. it really kills me to think of how much ive changed since even freshman year, and then at the same time, how much i havnt changed. one thing thats changed drastically is my whole life, therefore making me feel it necessary for ( Read more... )