I hate myself.... Why am I such an asshole? I hate myself, April Fools day, my stupidity.... all of it... I am so stupid that I upset my g/f with the stupidity of an April Fools joke on someone else... Normally it probably wouldn't bother me to the point to making me cry, but today was our 1 month anniversary... I made her so upset that she up and ( Read more... )

Well I don't know about everyone else, but my weekend has been the best it has been since hmm... I don't even remember the last time a weekend has been this good. I spent the entire weekend with Melanie. Started off a little slow seeing as she kind of missed like four buses or something like that lol. Once she got to UMass she got to meet my ( Read more... )

I can't believe how life can turn things around. Things can be so down, so bad, so incredibly wretched that you just want to give up. Then something happens. An event, a person, a thing enters your life. It flips everything you know upside down, backwards, and sideways. It feels as though you've known this your entire life, but it can't be possible ( Read more... )

Well let's just say things could have gone a lot better this weekend than they did. Oh and before I move on the last entry was me getting lots of depression and frustration out. I feel so much better now; Carlos and various other friends helped me feel better. Thanks everyone. Well the weekend was somewhat interesting. I spent most of it in my dorm ( Read more... )

I've hit the bottom. I don't have anything left... People are trying to convince me that I have a lot, but I really don't have anything at all. I wish to cry and allow all my pain, sorrows, hurt, hate, and anger to flow free from me. No matter how much I try nothing comes, not a single tear. It's as if someone or something wishes me to feel this ( Read more... )

Everything always gets messed up. I once again went from having good in my life to everything being shitty. Things seemed to be going well with school and everything, I had even fixed my schedule to be as I wanted it, but even that couldn't prepare me for what was to come. I was somewhat happy for once in my life, I loved my girlfriend, I had ( Read more... )

I messed with what was actually in the survey and made it look like I wanted it to. Hehehe....

Whew what a weekend. I can't believe how crazy things went. Well I spent the entire thing at Linz's place for one. And I was also the pimp at the Catillion. That was one of the greatest dances I have ever been to. Pimping girls is a hard job but only Marc can do it. Things at Linz's were ok. Stupid dog was REALLY starting to get on my nerves. I ( Read more... )

Wow what weekend. Let's see where to start. Well Thursday was the last time I talked to Shannon since today. Let's just say I liked Thursday's conversation between us better. This entire weekend I have not been home because I don't want to deal with my family because every weekend things seem to get worse and worse. So I have spent the entire ( Read more... )