yet another day at school with nothing better to do but fuck around on the computer. Not that i'm complaining lol, who would? I really think that i have found myself and discovered all the right people i want in my life. I have so much to be thankful for and i can't believe that my life is my own ( Read more... )

Funny how I find myself here again. This journal doesn't mean much... not to me or anyone who may bother to read it... which lucky for me isn't likely. I want to say my thoughts and my feelings but somehow they jumble every opertunity I get to really express them. I just want the nex year of my life to go well and go by. I want to be where I see ( Read more... )

I did not want to write in this thing anymore. So this seams rather dumb. but anyways, the only reason i have replied to your journal Benjamin is because LJ keeps e-mailing me with your responses. So stop flattering yourself. I would just delete this journal, but i don't want to loose all of my journal entries and stuff; they are mine. So do me a ( Read more... )

Am I cool or uncool? [CLICK]
You are Super-Cool!
Woah! Step back - the future's so bright for you it's blinding me! You are the coolest of the cool. Everyone looks up to you as the benchmark for being coooool. The fonze was your grandfather. Any cooler and you'd freeze! WOO it's chilly in here.
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I for some reason (giggles) woke up in a fuckin awesome mood. I feel really good for a change, it's nice. I just keep reminding myself how lucky i am and honestly i am wearing the biggest grin ever. A smile feels so strange because it's been a wile since i have worn one this big and this genuine. But i am really starting to see things falling ( Read more... )

Ben, thank you. For everything. you are more than i'll ever deserve and you are more amazing than i could have ever imagined. You saved me from myself that day in study... you offered me peace. you offered me hope. you offered me love... more importantly you opened your arms. I could have never made it with out you. thank you ( Read more... )

i've finally come to terms with "myself" and realized i truely miss who i used to be and i hate the person i see now. So i'm killing her. bye bye evil April. I want to be able to have the assurance i used to. i used have no doubts that i was a good person. now i second guess. i don't like it ( Read more... )

Yep, it's definately a boring and uneventful day. Same shit different day. I'm kinda sick of how redundant life is. Kind of tired of petty bullshit. But i guess no matter what it is inevitable "life sucks and then you die". lol. that is an optimistis way to look at it ( Read more... )

mmmm... tomorrow is thanks giving and i'm gonna get my eat on. no matter where i decide to go. i'd like to eat at home like normal people but i'd rather not sit there with a lost appitite because of the company. There is going to be a bunch of people there i'd rather not deal with. i hate thne way i feel uncomfortable in my own home. "home" yeah ( Read more... )

God i hate this stupid thing. But it's so addicting. I missed this old. I hardly use this thing. But it is like key communication for me now. I never thought i'd miss coventry. But i do. I grew up there. All i've ever known is in that little hick place. I'll have to come visit. there are a few people i'd like to either say hi to or make peace with ( Read more... )