if things could mend themselves. its almost as though i dont exist...as though i am a leaf amoung thousands. the masses rule the world. to be apart of the mass is to be the lion in the pac. its when you dont find room as a follower, thats where the lesson starts. to live still would be so much easier. everyone would walk around you and the ( Read more... )

this school year is sooo weird. everything is so different. almost as though something is missing. nothing is the same. even the things you expect to be the same are different. i cant help but wonder how this year will end. could it be as happy as the last? i doubt it. it was all so perfect last year. the classes, the people, the experiences. it ( Read more... )

it sucks not having a ride, a car, a license. i should have all of these things. and i have not one. im still working my ass off to get them too. it just feels as though this day when everything is supposed to come together is soo far away and just keeps getting further. i shall wait. for that is all i can do. i wish i had the guts to rob a bank. ( Read more... )

i think im due another journal entry! hehehe, i havent updated since my trip to canadia. thats a long time. im sure no one cares;) but for the few of you out there and for myself here it goes ( Read more... )

im in san francisco right now, at a computer in the ymca that we raided. it sounds like funn? well, no, not really. i kinda cant wait to get home to see my own bed! hahaha, no not really.im fine here. its cool looking at colleges. you learn mucho about admissions. im excited for next year to be my last year of high school! yay! well im on a college ( Read more... )

well, back to my story... so newcomer was set at gunpoint and we were just spectators from a distance. it was kinda scary just to se the scared, helpless look on newcomers face...i felt horrible for him. i felt that it was sort of our fault her was harassed, but i got over it soon and it was over. off to san pedro we went after the fiasco. once ( Read more... )

last night/this morning was filled with so much excitement! it all started as a normal night, just hangin out with a few buddies(newcomer,analu,&dylann). with a bright idea like going to the park our night was set. so we end up at the park with newcomer, analu and i in the car and dylann hangin out of the window....it was pretty funny(i guess you ( Read more... )

well as far as me being a jerk, i think ive crossed the line this year. on soo many levels have a been a badd person. i dont know where to start the apologies. i hope i can make things better where they need to be mended and forget about those that arent as important to them. i am going to be sooo busy this summer. i swore that is was just going ( Read more... )

o, i havent been on the machine in such a long time. i feel like i have abandoned my feelings. in reality i havent tho. its too bad if i have. im am sick once again. im really starting to worry about myself. i have been taking my huge vita veta vegamin vitamins and everything too. this upsets me. why cant my body just be happy & healthy!? i guess ( Read more... )

O my, it is soo hot at my house. im really thinking of buying one of those personal air conditioners!! i dont care how much it costs, im dying!!! ah, now that im over that, ive had a pretty good week. it all started with the season finally of seventh heaven, the greatest show in the world! ahhh, i cant wait until the new season begins and i find ( Read more... )