I'm in a silly kinda withdrawl ( Read more... )

What a year it's been. school will be coming soon, here comes another tide of change ( Read more... )

 This isn't fair. Isn't Fair  ISN"T FAIR

I was so happy!  just chilling doing my own thing.  for the first time all year long and then my birthday happened.
then my good friend made up a rumor about me and someone else I work with... that everyone believed.
And a 3 30 in the morn booty call
My best friend has been away forever:( and Kat has moved out

So ( Read more... )

 Okay so  watched the movie crash... so intense struck so hard.  i'm reverbing right now like crazy.  this is no disney movie, there is no happy ending just the truth.  At one point I just got plain mad because aren't movies supposed to take us away from reality not throw it in our faces?  the point of this was not entertainment, it was artistic ( Read more... )

 I just had all my insecurities and truths laid out in front of me.  Harsh to hear,  but i knew it all already so why does it bother me so much.

truth:  the hardest part was finding out sarah had predicted what i would do before I did it and was dead on and I never knew.  It freaks me out that someone can predict me so well.  i knew i could ( Read more... )

 K everyone STOP breaking up, I can only deal with so much sobbing on my shoulder at one time.  Well i don't mean that, it just sucks to see soo many of my friends go through this.  :(      and there are other problems.. like being put in the middle of all of these.  Note to self:  don't become friends with both side of the relationship.. will be ( Read more... )

 or at least I wish I could.
 So he comes crawling back, to a place much closer to me, literally.  
He is distant and quiet all night,  so is that that?
Belive jackie, just believe

 I'm getting tired, tired of writing about the same stuff.  Tired of going through the motions of the only way I know how to deal with these things. 
Today the thought crossed my mind:  what if this is how it always will be?
so i guess that should be an indication that something needs to change. i guess it's moronic to say that I don't know what to ( Read more... )

 it's not her fault,
It's def not his fault
it's mine.... I have to deal with it.. "Don't Cock Block" she says...

fine... but when exactly is it my turn???  is that too much to ask?  It would appear it is

I think a diary would be more appropriate then posting stuff on LJ but there is something soothing about knowing that a very select few people will read this, and i don't know about you, but I certainly don't talk about the stuff posted here to others.

so i'm on a diet... not the food kind another kind and because of this diet its gotten me to ( Read more... )