Confused?

[dandy_illusions]

Well, for something I looked forward to, Ballarat was SHIT. I spent most of it blind... the other half I spent on the bench... The nights were depressing and enraging and I couldnt even run it off during the days... I can't stand the politics of life. (It's all about who you know, not how good you are.)

I am so confused at the moment...

I can't turn

Comments

[anogy]

poor thing, come to coffee and all will be a little bit better. I've worked out the dates for schoolies- 24th till the 1st-ish. Want to see pirates on the weekend?

[dandy_illusions]

Nikk I'm just so bloody lost. I can't move forward and I refuse to/can't move backwards...

I'm looking forward to schoolies.. really looking forward to it. It'll be a blast!

yes I do want to see pirates, but I promised I'd see it with Miatt, so can she come too?

[anogy]

of course she can come, I should know the session times by thursday, it will be at eastland movies.

[dandy_illusions]

cool sounds good.

[strokesman]

ballarat!

did you hit up the rattle and hum?

prime establishment!

[dandy_illusions]

no every night they had allocated 'parties' all of which were located at the 21 arms unfortunately I didn't get time to hit the other night spots. next time I visit I'll search it out though :)

[quietthomas]

I'm I'm I'm! I I I! You you you....

What the hell are you anyways?
Who are you?

What is this thing which believes it's so confused?

[dandy_illusions]

Wow, I almost took that as rude or offensive... ALMOST.

Yes, my posts are completely self-concerned... but then thats pretty much a blog isnt it? Talking about yourself or at least your own views.

As for who am I? I'm a carbon based life form like everyone else on the planet (most of the time) the rest of the time I'm something else. What exactly i dunno.

As for differentiating myself from other life forms, I'm an 18 year old female who suffers emotional grievences like most 18 year old females. I have blonde-brown hair and I hate the fact it's curly. I guess that's the THING that thinks IT is so confused. Since apparently I'm an 'it'.

[quietthomas]

Well, if that's all there is to you, then what's to be confused about?

[dandy_illusions]

"emotional grievences"

emotions are confusing for any life form, and mine I feel are particularly so at the moment.

As for if that's all there is to me, well I couldnt possible write all about my self on her without writing for the rest of my life. And I wouldnt chose to anyway. I don't share my entire person with everyone. The people I want to know me fully, know me. All others need to earn that right, and my blog is certainly not some where I would spend my life trying to show exactly who I am. It's just a small glimpse into my soul... not the whole view...

I think you'll find your journal fails to completely describe who you are either. No person can completely sum up their being through words... some things can only be conveyed via body language, experience... etc.

[fakeseizure]

ugh. marilyn monroe. inspiring the next generation of needy, pathetic women who need a man in their lives in order to feel happy, and can only ever use their looks to get ahead in life.
oh, i only dream that one day i can be like her.. miserable, lonely and suicidal.