What used to be the overt tyranny of authority over subjects has become the soft subjugation of moneyed interests over everything, To the point that it even compromises governance. Not government, but the actual ability of people to collectively guide their path. Ayn Rand argued that creative minds should go on strike against government. I think ( Read more... )

"You built up this great expectation within me, it seemed like you went out of your way to tug at all the idealist bullshit you saw." I didn't mean to yell ( Read more... )

There were a few pleasantries this rental house allowed us. One was a painter's view of the west. The end of the Earth writ orange and pink and purple and azure. The mirrored bay below it making half the visible world into art. I took it for granted in my youth and walked by our windows dismissively. These days, returned to its quiet grace, I find ( Read more... )

I figured out how to do it now. I located something. A switch, a viewpoint, whatever. I have it. More power than was ever before allowed to me. I fucking found it. Not just scraping it with poems and nicely-worded memos and tired stories. I fucking found it. I have a goddamn wall covered in production and this is really happening.

Here is a series of messages I sent to a friend ( Read more... )

My opposing force. My counterweight ( Read more... )

"Please understand-"I don't know what I want to say, I just know I don't want her to be mad at me ( Read more... )

I saw her again about a year later when the scabs had cracked away. Crossed paths at a bar late late late one night. We were nice. I went through a weird phase of disliking her but that only lasted a month or so. She, I gathered, had a longer stretch despising me ( Read more... )

Though I did walk into an accounting meeting of agency-wide fiscal folk the other day just after bringing in 2 million bucks (they're always so jealous because most of them are scraping) and threw my hands up and said "GLORY BE UNTO ME, MOTHERFUCKERS"

(they're friends, I'm not THAT much of a jerk)

So I guess my entries have mostly been excerpts of writing rather than anything really relating to my life.

I've been good. Working a lot and hanging out with my girlfriend when I'm not. That's been the bulk of my uninteresting existence.