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 I miss my friends :'(

I'm not as strong as I thought I was.. T texted today. He said maybe we could meet tomorrow.... Sigh.

I am a mess
A big fat mess

I have lost so much in so little time
I have cried so much in so little time

Please look beyond my smiles

 Hypocrites. Aren't we all? You hate it when your boss bosses you around and orders you to do things you aren't supposed to do like make coffee for him. But are you going to spit that out in his face and get fired just because of that? No. You still act like he's the most amazing boss in the entire world. Why? To survive in this stupid world

" I once thought I knew everything about love... about him.. Till I woke up one day and found myself in a bottomless pit - I've underestimated my potential of loving him; the deepness of my love, the compromises I could make. No one told me love could be this toxic until I met him; only when I felt the tears on my cheeks, heard my heart breaking ( Read more... )

I don't know why I left Zad.

I still love him so very much... I do

I lost my boyfriend
now I lost my friends

I have no idea what the fuck I'm doing
I actually cut my tummy cos I tried cutting my fats off my body today
It's bleeding now

No I am not depressed I am just upset. But can you blame me?

 I wish someone could make me feel special right now. I am feeling so insignificant. Feeling like mud, like I'm nothing. K bye.

I was here when my relationship with Zad began ( Read more... )

I have been SO jealous lately it's probably really unhealthy ( Read more... )

I walked home crying all the way from ehub today. Thank God I had Amanda on the phone with me though..... I hate admitting my feelings but I really feel like she's my pillar of support. Ha ha. Cliche. But honestly. She's got my back 24/7...... I really got lucky on getting someone like her.

Study plan today was such a bad idea. Staring at your ( Read more... )