damn man, 
what a shitty way to start the new year.... 

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You're running rampant through me
Infecting everything
My eyes are red, and I'm scared to death
You don't know what you're doing

This is my call to arms
And I have waited for too long

Maybe I'll never quit
Maybe you never meant a single thing you said
Well I've grown so sick of this
Confusion fills my head
And I'm dripping with regret
I do feel better if you ( Read more... )

gahhhhhhhhhh why won't my realatives leaveeeeeeee?

is so lifelike lately. 
of course it makes sense to me. 
i hope the mistakes i've made don't actually end up being mistakes... 
i love being a teen.. 
reguardless i'm really happy where i'm at but i know it won't stay long and i have a feeling it'll be my fault. 
in fact ....i know it.
"anyone will do tonight"

i fucking hate that my life's so much like dawson's creek.

i'm so unsure of everything

FUCK!

Sad, small, sweet, so delicate
We used to be this dying breed
I got a bad feeling about this
I got a bad feeling about this

You kept still until the long drive home
You slept safe and close to the window...
I got a bad feeling about this
I got a bad feeling about...

Who's to say you'll have to go (I could go all night)
Well say you'll have to go (I ( Read more... )

i'm so unsure of so many things in my life right now.
the only thing i'm sure of is that i need a fucking job! 
i need to get out of this place. 
a lot of band shit has to change too. 
i wish our lead singer would actually give us the time of day or fucking talk to us every once in a while... 
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a lot of things about me are different now. 
my mindset is very more ...excepting so to speak. 
i'm done with shallow uncaring thoughts. 
i'm done with malice and hate.  
all i ask for is acceptance...

i miss "silent desperation." it actually kinda hit me tonight while i was reading adams fucking incredible lyrics and i got a little down.
sux big time because we really were an amazing band and i really was proud of the music we created. life goes on i guess.

i'm almost excited to go back to school... yeah i know, weren't expecting that one.
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