My father uninstalled the MP3 software on the computer and then lost the installation disk. grr.

I have driver's guide test tomorrow. and i start the WASL tommorow. suck. a lot.

Some hearts are more fragile somehow. More pure in someway. Like crystal in a world of glass, even the way they shatter is beautiful.

i have failed at the one thing i told someone i was going to do for them.

maybe people like to be dead shadows because it is the only way they know how to be. and it is the only way they know how to keep from being hurt.

I have never wanted so much not to live in my entire life.
I now know for sure that i am considered a burden.

I have become obsessed with online pool.
and making people mad.

why do i even bother? i try, i really do. does it always have to be my fault? shit. i'm sorry i can't get a ride. i'm sorry my parents are never home. but those are not my fault. damn ( Read more... )

i decided to come back just to add that every day this week i have woken up feeling and looking like i got punched in the face. a whole bunch of times. i think i am getting in dream fights or something. except those haven't been my dreams.

I can just see the words "this wouldn't have happened if you would have..." roll off their lips. I feel blame. I am probably just overanalyzing it. Like usual. I feel as though i just disappoint people. I am tired of feeling like it is my job to fix every situation, problem. Or to be the 'mom' of the situation. Scolding and getting mad. I don't ( Read more... )