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I'm dealing with it all much better every day. I found my anger yesterday and was almost giddy about it. It was a weird combination of indignation and liberation. I still have a tinge of sadness and he is on my mind a lot. I am still in the habit of wondering if he thinks of me, misses me, etc. even though it doesn't matter. All that matters is me ( Read more... )

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I'm cycling through my grief. I thought my tears were finished, but much to my sorry surprise, I cried more than ever today. I even got a bit of the heaves. I let it out....and out...and out.

I hope I get through this with grace and strength. The sooner the better, but then again, I want to learn from this. I'm sure there is a lesson. I can't ( Read more... )

I took my research class last night. I have so much reading between the two classes, I can hardly believe it. I'm having a minor crisis of confidence, but it's doable. I can do it. I took four classes online to finish my BA right after I moved back to DC and started a new job. I can do this. I can do this well. (this is me convincing myself)

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Ahhhh.....a much better evening. I talked to a friend. She's in the MSW program with me, I've known her since junior high school, and even though we never have been close, she is someone I like and trust. I told her about D. She knew him back in high school. He dated her best friend for two years. When I told her how he treated me, she immediately ( Read more... )

I have visited this site several times a day lately. It's about getting over a breakup and it's been invaluable to me. It lists 10 things to do after a breakup. I haven't yet done #5: Take a Relationship Inventory. Time to remedy that.

The journaling, well, it's being done more or less here on LJ.

Inventory:

Pros/Highs
companionship
touchstone
flirting
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It's so amazingly beautiful outside lately, and I've been curled up in the fetal position (mentally) tending to my wounded heart. The only way to get past it is to go through it. I am. Yesterday was the first day that I didn't cry about it. I thought about it from the moment I woke up until I went to bed. I exhausted it with Jess and Meri. I tried ( Read more... )

Today, I noticed the three fortunes I have taped to my computer monitor:

Good things are coming to you in due course of time
You will have many friends when you need them
From now on your kindness will lead you to success

The first fortune proves true often. The second has never been so true as the past few days. The third, I hope it is true!

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It's been three days since D blew my mind and shredded my heart. Melodramatic maybe. I'm quite crushed ( Read more... )