Yesterday, my cell phone was malfunctioning, and I had to have it replaced at the Verizon store. Fortunately, it's under warranty. Unfortunately, I lost my ringtone. But then something good came of that. Here's why...

When D and I broke up, I had to stop using my long-time favorite ringtone because after six months of him calling several times daily ( Read more... )

I was telling a coworker that I'm also friends with about hearing from my ex, D. She quickly said, "of course, because he's the kind of guy that feeds off of women's souls." Wow. Yeah. Well put.

How many empty-souled people have fed from mine? I'm sure more than a few. I'm mending my heart, and it feels good. I hope that much like a broken bone, it ( Read more... )

I had a bad dream last night/this morning. In the dream, D and I were together, and I was at his place and naked on the floor. I asked him for something to put on, but he said he had nothing he could spare. When I'd make suggestions, he'd only get irritated. Then his friends were at the door, a sliding glass door where they could view inside and ( Read more... )

Obituary

On the way to the funeral with two friends I've known since elementary school, I felt like I didn't belong. I badgered myself about my desire to attend this funeral for a friend I hadn't seen in years. I was well aware that the biggest reason was my sense of my own mortality, but it was more than that. I've lost friends my age before. This ( Read more... )

I'm feelin' good. I saw my counselor yesterday and we talked a bit about my "stuff." Yeah. That's what I pay him for. We talked about my relationship style, my past, etc. I mentioned that a couple of my friends had pegged D as a narcissist, and he found that interesting. He referred to the narcissist wounding, so I looked it up. Fascinating stuff. ( Read more... )

So says my dear friend, Vinny. I told him a little story that I'll repeat here ( Read more... )

I can't help but think of Stuart Smalley. Affirmations are so dorky!!!! Good thing I'm a dork ( Read more... )

I'm watching Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. I've seen it before...parts of it several times since it's on cable. It wasn't until now I thought about the erasing of a person from the mind. How tempting that would be. I keep thinking I'm better, that I'm past my grief, and thenI have a day like today. The pain was as fresh as the first few ( Read more... )

When I first moved to Florida, I made friends with a woman, Tina, who moved there from Alabama. She looked a lot like Jamie Pressley from My Name is Earl. She was wild, pretty, smart, but in the end, not a keeper type of friend. I mention her because when I met her, I was going through a difficult time -- divorce, relocation, etc. She gave me some ( Read more... )

I used to date a very nice man that sent me the picture of the kitten that sees a lion in the mirror. I love this picture.

I tried on swimsuits yesterday. Wow. Yeah. I'm 41. I have white dimply flesh that's plump in all of the womanly places. I also have age spots on my cheekbones and decolletage. Dammit. But hey, I also have nice hair, few ( Read more... )