wow i haven't been on livejournal in forever & i find its' past content amusing. i'm only using livejournal now to find those anorexic and pro-eating disorder communities so i can be around my people & gather a fast knowledge of the "no thank you, i'm not hungry" excuse! word. And by the way, for those of you who shook their head in disgust, this ( Read more... )

guess what?
i'm in love.
like, real, god damn honest love.
this one is different.
AND i know i always say this
but i've never felt this way before.
yeah,
it feels great.
& i still hate most of you.
cheers!

i think it's funny when people say that i "ruined" their lives.
get over it & grow some sass.
ultimately, one has control of how others affect their soul.

PS: can life stop being so funny sometimes.

love & let love ( Read more... )

i'm pretty fabulous.
& i'm fabulously pretty.
my friends are pretty fabulous themselves.
& i just used the word pretty & fabulous a total of
8 times
most of them are also members of club anorexia
& you know what, that's pretty and fabulous.

yeah so come friday, i'm going to atlanta to meet up with patrick. lover's weekend, need i say more?

my ibook is a piece of shit & i want a powerbook now. the silver would match my mini ipod anyways. fashion over anything people. i'm about to enter a marriage that will financially take everything i have, & that isn't much! however, i've been thinking about getting another job. maybe my father will rehire me..probably not, but i really need more ( Read more... )

i've been feeling quite disturbed lately. i'm thinking i need to cleanse my soul and return it back to its normal taintedness. this past weekend i realized everyone is a fucking creep. it's not comforting and my head is telling me to ignore the sinful behaivor but my heart is shoving itself into mode of destruction. the only person who could save ( Read more... )

Let's make a toast to:
1. insecurity
2. hang-ups
3. forgotten glasses
4. forgetting rules
5. realizing that i have now offically made myself vulnerable in a situation that i was supposed to own.

um, yeah, i've never been in this situation before. i kinda miss the old me? but at least i'm feeling now, but i'm feeling so much too much too soon, ( Read more... )

Latest Habits:

a. Revolver VIP w/ free bottles
b. Indulgence
c. Loving friends too much & having them accept me for me
d. Going straight to the bar, ALWAYS
e. Enjoying life
f. Taking chances