i want you to go away. who invited you, anyway?

the potential to actually get to live in jared and ryan's house next year was presented last night. its a stretch and there are quite a number of things that would have to be worked out, but i'm imagining it..and i want it so badly. lindsay and i could live downstairs, where jared and ryan are now, for the first four months, until january i think. ( Read more... )

wow, definitely needing a break from lindsay. she talks so much. about shit that i don't care about in the slightest. she comes in my room when the door is closed and i'm obviously doing work. she doesn't ask if i have time to talk, just sits and starts shooting her loads. she thinks everyone with a penis is in love with her. i want to tell her, " ( Read more... )

this place is amazing, but the thrill wore off quickly. i cried last night, unable to sleep, missing my mom already ( Read more... )

sometimes i'm confident everything will be fine. sometimes i'm not. i don't know why i'm so reluctant, i just don't trust her. i trust most people, give most people the benefit of the doubt. but its not very easy with her.

it makes me sad when i have nothing to talk about.

i don't understand myself.

new journal: www.livejournal/users/capisco ( Read more... )

kelley, why didn't i go with you ( Read more... )

sufian found a pace flag online and got it for me. he's the best. we saw garden state and collateral today. good times.

i think a lot about going to france.

where did i find all these dreams?

sometimes, i really hate my dreams.

today i went with jeffrey and oliver, my favorite duo, to the long beach museum of art to see their friend patrick johnston's ceramics at the artisans market. being there inspired me a little more. i'm gonna start pumping stuff out and selling it for obscene amounts of money. well, not obscene. its the next best thing to prostitution for some extra ( Read more... )