catching up...

[daraknor]

So I've been reading my friends list for the first time in ages. It is interesting to see all of the things people have been up to. Lives changed, things happening. There was a post in my friends about a physics theory involving 240 or so dimensions simplifying math for a grand unified theory. Tried to find that again but couldn't find the post or

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[kibbles]

A lot going on, there...

[variantvortex]

Being alone is temporary at least. Good luck finding your logical empath! I met my girlfriend via www.OKCupid.com, she had the highest match % and we are indeed very similar, which of course isn't always a good thing...

[daraknor]

I actually used OKCupid. I dated the girl that had a very high match rating and found we were too similar. Instead of feeling, I was thinking too much. There is a girl I like, but cannot talk to. In my loneliness I imagine us together and I feel less alone. Sorry to be all whiny, but basically the relationship issues mirror my life issues: I feel like I don't fit. The idea of creating a place where I do fit is still compelling but also detached :/

[lifentimesof_me]

I really hope things start going better for you. As far as your emotions anyway. I don't know you well at all, but you do seem like a very sincere person and you deserve to be happy, like anyone else.

[daraknor]

Thank you. I've been told by a number of people I actually feel things too strongly. I wish you happiness too. Maybe my emotions will catch up with my life, and maybe your life will catch up with your happiness.

Sucks you're feeling down :(

[antayla]

I think you should avoid talking to Heather...
I too, have to avoid stress. Granted, the consequences are less severe in my case. I dunno, I think you know what you're doing; stay your course, pay attention and don't lose faith. (Okay, that sounded really cliche, but hey, even cliches gotta be true sometimes.)

Re: Sucks you're feeling down :(

[daraknor]

Cliches are often true, but as the Oracle said in Matrix 2, knowing the path is different from walking the path. I think people dislike cliches because of how strong that difference is. In my case, I don't even know where the path is, so cliches are a good idea if they apply

[tiny_muse]

Was I the 2.5?

[daraknor]

No, 2.5 was the total time. You and I dated for 3 years calendar time, but I was with you in Oregon for about 5 weeks total (2 weeks together, 3 weeks apart, 3 weeks together) and then the Bay area from June to Feb. All told, we spent about 7 months in the same state. The on/off time after that lasted much longer and I didn't date anyone between Jan-June. You came for a visit 2-4 times (memory a bit hazy after so many years) but I was single the entire time. The next person I dated after you was Amber. I wanted to date Brenda and I certainly put in the effort, but she discounted me based on my desire for hugs 15-30 seconds longer than she did. No.. 2.5 years is the total time I've been in relationships period.