less then a month...
i still love her, i still want her back....
i still want to reach out and hold her
and cuddle with her, to kiss her, to stroke her hair.
and i can't.

i can't take this lj shit no more.

i feel so numb.
i want to leave this place.
i need to get away
i can't stand it here anymore.

sometimes i'd pray for jesus to kill me.
to end my life...
sometimes..

tried to forget last night.
and i forgot for a little while.
but the anger has returned.
its giving me a headache.

i just don't understand

and now i know exactly why no one's asked me to do anything and they keep asking her.
yea i wanted to belive it wasn't true.
i wanted to but hoping and wishing don't change shit.
fuck it
fuck her
fuck everyone.

it was all lies ( Read more... )

i wonder if my fears are coming true.
....but if thats how it is...
well it was all lies, but i'd rather know it was then
for the lies to have gone on.
i'm ok with it.
it hurts nonetheless. but i will survive.

and i've learned something from it.
i'm no longer naive.

gotta love this review of passion of christ

http://www.aintitcoolnews.com/display.cgi?id=17222

lol so the orginal zombie./

darder is drunk.
darder is drunk off of beer.
and 80's movies.
wishing i had liqour.
i hate beer.
but i love 80's
robocop is so violent
it makes me horny.
soemtimes i wish i was as violent.

hate makes me happy.

hate keeps a man alive.