its 5a and i cant sleep. i cant think either my minds just all blurry. i dont know. flash games are fun, addicting, and free. a majorly bad combo. i think i'm going to try and sleep now.

btw, crying babies SUCK ASS! and diablo sucks horribly as well. fucking noises! rwar.

i've been quite busy thus no recent update. i'm a bottler with emotions. and i think my bottles just about full. i dont know when the breaking point will be, but i can feel it coming and i'm scared. i dont have anything in my life that makes me happy. i just dont want to hurt anymore :-/ i want to be happy like everyone else. i dont think thats too ( Read more... )

Here I Sit All Broken Hearted. Came To Work And Never Started.

i'm at work and i'm BORED OUT OF MY MIND. someone kill me, please.

All around me are familiar faces, worn out places, worn out faces ( Read more... )

alright, i know its been over a week since i last updated. i managed to catch an awesome flu which wiped me out for the better part of a week. got my nipples pierced, which really wasnt as bad as i thought it was going to be. i just saw girl, interupted for the first time. it made me extremely depressed. even though it had a good ending, i dont ( Read more... )

heart ache and pain ( Read more... )

ntohing really worth posting... except that i got punched in the mouth by my boss. hah. ouch.

well... tonights a little better of a night :) theres alot of things i should have a right to be sad and angry and emo about... but ya know what... i'm not. i worked all day which it was a horrible day, went out to eat, came home and slept. i feel great right now. i'm sure its gonna be temporary, but hey, i'll take it while it lasts.

i'm sleepy. and saddish. and alone-feeling. and generally blah. i dunno.... i just want to find someone who feels the same way about me as i do about them. i want to have someone to hold. maybe i'm just being selfish. i dont know. i wish i could express my feels better too. i'm a bottler though. always have been. i dont know why, i'm just feeling ( Read more... )

i found out some more shit about my dad last night the really hurt me. i thought i was totally apathetic towards him now. but i realized he still has the power to hurt me. and i dont like that. its ok though, its safely bottled up now. today... i did absolutely nothing besides eat, sleep, talk on the phone and bum around it was great. my mom said ( Read more... )