well, i had the baby. she was born on may 20th of 2006. she is perfect and i love her more than anything. clarity airyannah richard. i love her dad so much i don't think he really realizes how much i do. but i just don't feel right latley. it isn't in any way my daughter or my husband. i think it's just my hormones. i hope. i don't know ( Read more... )

school is going good, i'm so proud of myself. gettin good grades. and me and miah are doing great. we r gonna have our own place really soon. baby will be here in 10 weeks *smiles* miah is so excited. we go for an ultrasound tomorrow. i can't wait. finally things are working out. i'm begining to really like it here.

i don't know where to begin, i miss michigan. i don't think that i like arizona anymore. mostly of because what happened with my job today. they basicaly in a nice way told me to fuck off because i'm pregnant and they see that as a problem. everything was fine then yesterday my managers finally found out that i was pregnant, i thought they ( Read more... )

fuck you jill. i'm not gonna lie. i hate you. i hate the fact that my own fiance would reathr talk to you about our problems than me. it's not that i don't want him to have anybody to talk to but i don't want it to be you either. i just want him to be able to talk to me but that dosen't seem to be happening any time soon or maybe ever at all. have ( Read more... )

i don't know or understand what is going on any more. he dosen't seem to care. he only wants her to talk to. i am nothing. then he dosen't understand why i get mad. he dosen't even read this to try to understand. don't even know why i write in this stupid thing anyway. nobody does. so why do i bother? fuck it all, fuck this world, fuck ( Read more... )

i hate this, it's like every time me and miah have a fight or argument it is posted on lj and had comments made on it by HER, or he has to consult HER!!! i hate it. i wish she would just dissapear. i don't want HER to know every time we have a fight or what is going on in our lives, is that so bad and too much to ask? i guess she will never be ( Read more... )

i am tired, i just got back from picking miah up from work. i've been cleaning all day. i still have to go to aj to cash my check. but me and miah are gonna go see a movie tonight, that will be nice.

yesterday me and miah went to the mall, he was acting weird all day. any way i'll get to that in a second. i lost the van and then was told by reasen that i was a female version of miah, and that he loved me because of that. he is a really cool kid, i'm glad miah introduced us...anyway on to the excitment. we were on the way home.. me and miah ( Read more... )

well im in arizona now. i love the weather... i guess i really do like it here. being pregnant again isn't all that bad. not as rough as i thought it would be. well gotta go, im watching lost.

i get out of the state of michigan in like 4 days!!! i cant wait. i had fun today, i took my kids to a pumpkin patch and there was a lot of things for tham to do there. they loved it, although miah didn't seem to have too much fun, but hewent along with everything anyway because i think he knew how much it ment to me. i cant wait toget to arizona ( Read more... )