so pretty much all the gay guys of miami hate me..

i dont know what did it, or maybe i do but iv been inspired to do really well in school because in only a year and a half i plan to be on that road trip and then fsu right after. pretty much my lifes gonna be on autopilot till winter break; work, school, school, work and then ill probably get back on autopilot after. but in order to keep my life ( Read more... )

my weekend was much needed. even though i worked most of it.
Finally saw phil again, had much needed lorena time, and had a very free day in which lorena and i just roamed around freely without our parents knowledge.

I never liked winter because im not one for the cold, but it seems to be lightening up my mood. :]

so im getting glasses, but even with lenses they cant get my sight to 2020 so now i need to go to a neurologist because there might be something wrong with my brain.

only in my life.

pretty much id like my optimism back.
and id like to stop wishing everything was back to the way it used to be.

i feel stupid and hopeless. i always write about how i want to leave everything and just travel. im a pioneer in a 16 year old girls body and because of it i cant do anything but look to the future which upsets me seeing as i like to live in the present and have grown accustomed to doing things on impulse ( Read more... )

i really need to keep my mind busy. i just need people to keep me distracted.
too much is going on at once. i need to be with people who i care for and care for me.
i need to stop thinking, i need to have fun.

i gave up on my photos for a while but i want to start up again and i want to go on this huge adventurous road trip across the US, and Canada would be rad too,and everyone is welcome :]
across the universe definitely inspired me, and well, blew my mind.

started dairy queen yesterday. it wasnt too bad but i miss my johnny rocket family.

i dont know if this is true or not because im pretty sure i dont have a normal family, but whenever the media shows a sick family member the rest of the family seems pretty fucking nice. now i know no one in my family is willingly nice. we arent the type of family that hugs and says how much we love each other but i dont find it right to ( Read more... )