I forgot just how good it feels to be in your arms, and how good it feels to be loved the way you love me. It wasn't a mistake and I hope we don't regret it. It was the way I always wanted it to be, and you were the man I fell in love with. I don't know what happened, or how we changed, or why it turned out this way. I know that you're the ( Read more... )

Who would have ever thought you could hurt me the way you've done it, so deliberate so determinded. I'd say those words sum up the way I feel tonight, goes for both of us I guess. I don't even know what I feel sorry for anymore, because I'd say anyone that acted like you deserved what I did to you. How can a person be so empty of any sort of ( Read more... )

You walked away from what you claimed you loved and I promised that I would never ever lie to you, and now you've seen me for the imperfect person I am, and you've rejected me. I made promises that I didn't keep. I hope I didn't hurt you as much as I think, but I'm not the whore you think. Perfection is so out of reach and you're as far from it ( Read more... )

I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving. I had a good day, got to eat lots of really good food, and laugh a lot, and I fell asleep a lot throughout the day but that's expected today! I did laundry with the new detergent, so now my sheets smell like tropical gain, I can smell it and it's pleasent ( Read more... )

Today was a healing sort of day. Last night was rough, I felt sort of empty and just plain awful, and today it was sort of like a giant hug for my soul. I used to worry about what people would say about me if I talked like that, about me and God but whatever, without God I'm lost. I lost God once, and I hope I never do again. Anyway moving on ( Read more... )

Sometimes you can actually feel this amazing feeling inside of you, and you are happy and content, and in your small world things are right. There are times when you feel so loved and beautiful and you have a purpose, things are wonderful. The cold of winter doesn't seem so harsh, and the darkness that falls so early is something that makes you ( Read more... )

It's amazing how much we keep locked inside to keep ourselves safe. It is amazing the pain we can endure just to keep ourselves safe from a pain that is even worse. I have half an idea what's inside, and it scares me. I don't know how to get at it in a safe and rational way, I can certainly create the situation to bring it out. It's easier to ( Read more... )

So anyway for any of you who don't already know I'm planning to move to Dallas in Jan. Yes sorry it's so sudden but it is. I'm just a very confused young lady right now, and I feel like I need a fresh start. I've lived here all my life, I've fallen in love here, and I've done things that break my heart here. I feel like some warm weather and a ( Read more... )

I fucking hate everything and everyone right now. I know that's awful, but I'm an awful person. I hate myself I hate my life, I hate my friends, I just hate everything that is around me and near me. I hate Justin, I hate this apartment, I hate New England, I hate my car, I hate my cats ( Read more... )

I cannot sleep for anything right now, but I promise I'm not going to take 32 tylenol pm's to help me sleep. I just can't sleep, everywhere I turn there's something that reminds me of Justin and I hate it, I just don't want to think about him right now, but I lie in bed and I think about how we used to just stay in bed and watch movies, or how I'd ( Read more... )