wow i guess this thing is becoming more and more useful who would of thought after haveing it for a good 2 years at the very least. and thank what ever go you believe in for it sometimes. if i didin't have it i think i would truly explode sometimes, my spirt is so passionate and at the same time it is so lifeless and cold. i'm weird i guess, i ( Read more... )

i know i don't update on here at all or very little to say the least. i guess i feel that there is no need most times. nothing much gose on in my life, but still this is a good place to vent my feelings and the like. at least here i can say what needs to be said and i don't have to feel like i am a burden on any one i mean come on lets face it no ( Read more... )

Well I know it has been long time since I’ve updated this thing.. I just haven’t had the strength, or the will to do it. It seems when I think things are going ok they really isn’t .I’ve been in a rut as of late, my heart hurts and I don’t know why. I keep beating myself up and I know I shouldn’t but I do. I can feel the darkness running in my ( Read more... )

Well I know I don’t update this thing very often but ohh well … it’s not like I have much to up date . other than my depressing thoughts about this damned world.. there is nothing sacred or pure left . not even love. The one thing I never thought could be corrupted but I guess I am wrong . love means nothing to anyone any more it is merely 3 ( Read more... )

I don’t know where to begin or what even to say .. I hate this time of year .. it only means that I’m gonna have to go around with my allergies all messed up and then the best part .. I get to miss my mom terribly.. this is the time of year when she started getting really sick and well I could do nothing about it ,.. oh well right … who cares .. I ( Read more... )

well thats right it my b day tomrrow and well .. i guess im a bit sad ... i miss my mom so much sometimes but never as much as this time of year ... i mean she was my world and well shes been gone...now for 3 years .. this time of year i start thinking about her and wishing she was here ... she was the coolest mom ever ... i mean she would have ( Read more... )

sometimes i just dont know what to do about myself ... most of the time im a happy person .. but when i get low i get really low .. and well all the sudden i feel really low and well it dont take much for me to get low .. bought a new game and well .. i dont seem to be doing the best at it .. oh well just chalk it up to another thing i cant do ( Read more... )

im done .. done sticking up for s selfish bitch .. i will no longer stick up for kari ... or shell for that matter ... i can take no more of either of them .. hopefully soon mel and i can get a place of our own and leave this death trap .. i only call it a death trap because if we stay much longer one of those two are gonna die either by my hand or ( Read more... )

OMG sooo much has happened i dont know where to start .... i know i dont update likei should but this is more for me than anyone else soo i guess all is well that ends well .. i just recently got out of the hospital after having bad breathing problems and well it's been bliss since i got home for the most part.. mel and i are closer than ever and i ( Read more... )

well not much goes on in my life i go to a crapy job ..and then i come home and well the only thing i look forward to is my best friend mel ... she is what keeps me going .. and what keeps a smile on my face.. if it wernt for her i think i would be in a corner somewhere beating my head aginst the wall LOL ... anyways not much to say we finally got ( Read more... )