so, i've been reading this book that makes me poke at old things. in the story the two characters are crazy in love w/ each other. and then for stupid reasons one of them abadons the other. leaving that one with a gaping hole where their heart and will to go on living was. it's written w/ such a reality that it makes me ache. but then the ( Read more... )

i'm still remembering shit that i had forgotten. why the hurt, why the betrayal...why it all went down. no, i don't wish to go back and fix what was already broken. it's still like looking at someone else's life. i look at pictures and it makes me happy to remember the good times, but the feelings i had back then are alien to me. i look at those ( Read more... )

currently playing with the idea as to whether or not i want to go out after work tonight. i'm leaning toward a no, becos i'm not happy with a certain someone. i don't care to be lied to. if you don't want to see me, then say that don't make up some bs that you're tired when hmm...obviously you're not. i mean geez. i thought about letting it drop, ( Read more... )

so last night was one of the many random nights robin and i got to catch up. he has a myspace now and he's grown-up. and the question SJ and i had got answered. heh. yes, i was never sure either. *shrugs* he's still as social as ever from what i've seen. very academic too. i wish him the best of luck ( Read more... )

it's late. i'm tired. i've finally calmed down some. i go to school. i clean house. i work...well, sorta - which is NOT my fault. i was all happy to get home expecting a plate of spaghetti, cos that's what stepmom said she was making for dinner. is there a plate for me when i get home? nope. course not. why would the bitch remember that i haven't ( Read more... )

so i'm bored and decide to explore myspace to see who else i can find. who do i find? atamu. interesting and sad. still alone and a new fun fact doesn't want kids. i wonder what happened there, becos he's great with kids. i thought he liked kids. shows how much i know. course being mormon and advistising you don't want kids is not a smart thing to ( Read more... )

You Are Death
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so yea...um, i'm having one of those weeks where i'm ok one minute and then if one thing goes wrong i'm ready to rip someone's head off :D how pleasant...not. it's just...i dunno. my ceramics class had been getting to me. the wheel is frustrating as hell if you don't know the proper hand positions. then there's my health teacher who should be ( Read more... )

busy, busy...work, school, getting supplies, family, friends, seiji-kun <3. i spent most of todai running around. drop off stepmom, pick up chibi, drop off chibi, go to school, look for supplies, no supplies, get gas money, go to classes, get gas, lunch for stepmom, drop lunch, go get chibi, go get supplies, pick stepmom, grab dinner. then...bubble ( Read more... )

so i started work todai ^^ yup, me's got a job :3 course my place of employment is where i'll prolly be spending most of my monies anyways -.-* alas. but i can 'borrow' books for two whole weeks there too ^-^ i can read all the manga i want and not go broke! yay! i hope i do ok, i'm not much of a salesperson thou :s meh! but, hopefully it will all ( Read more... )