It's times like this when I feel the most lonely. Like the only people I can talk to are thousands of miles away....and talking on the phone just won't cut it. It's times like this when I just wish someone would hold me close and tell me that everything is okay. That the choices you picked will turn out fine whether they were the right ones or not ( Read more... )

I'm still not sure what the hell I'm gonna do. I only have a few days left. It seems like when I first got here the days went by so slow it was nice. And now that I have to decide whether to stay or go, the days are flying by. If I leave I have to catch the 8am flight out of here. If I stay, I don't have to worry about it ( Read more... )

As of Saturday he'll have been here a month. The last couple of days have been kind of stressful....Like him saying he'd walk with me to work and then deciding minutes before I have to go that he's too tired to walk with me. And then him not wanting to come see me at lunch after he said he would. So I'm at work kind of pissed off. Not too much but ( Read more... )

So....Sunday my dad and I went to pick Anthony up at the airport. He packed up his things to move out here. It's been two days since he's been here. Right now he's laying on the futon, my mom bought for him to sleep on, sleeping. He looks so peaceful and handsome and cute ( Read more... )

Find a way to say just the wrong things??? Always saying the things that make people feel bad...It's not like I do it on purpose at all...it just happens. And then I feel all terrible about it. Why doesn't anything ever go right for me? If nothing else goes right I hope that this one thing does. Anthony means everything to me and I just want to be ( Read more... )

and today is one of those days. My boss called yesterday and asked if I wanted/could come into work today...and I've been sitting at home thinking that maybe today would have been a better day if I had gone into work ( Read more... )

I'm tired of crying after I get off the phone...I hate it. I hate that I can't really do anything when Anthony sounds sad and depressed, I can't do anything because I'm not there. And I hate it. I hate arguing. I hate this town. Right at this moment I hate just about everything. I hate my job...I hate being here instead of there. I hate how I feel ( Read more... )

Alright...I don't even know how long it's been since I last posted here...probably a little more than two months ( Read more... )

Hmmm...I think maybe the word that would best describe it right now would be hectic...even though that's kind of a strong word...it's really the only word that comes to mind at the moment ( Read more... )

Okay...first off...I just want to say...that Anthony and I have been together for about two weeks now. I have NEVER felt this way before. Not with Lance and not even with Josh. I feel as though I want to be with Anthony. And I want to be with him for a LONG time. But I don't really want to think too much about a mega future between us...because I ( Read more... )