i always find a way to ruin everything for myself.

im so fucking stupid and enfuriated at the same time.

shit shit fuck.
i wish i could write more and explain,
only for myself.
i can't.

i just damn well can't.

i thought today was going to be a lonely day ( Read more... )

im so sick of the shit.
im so sick of the lies.

all i want is someone who is real.

he 'loves' me, and he hurts me, somehow he figures out how to do both.

its time to deal with it,
i guess.

wow i got tossed last night.
i think i got more loaded than everyone there.
shiiiiiit.
i have a hangover.

blrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrpsplaaaaaat.atkhjalkhfaF!!!!

TIME
GOES
BY
SO
SLOWLY.

ehh the pep rally was lame.
lame a s f u c k .]]]]]]]

i got the weirdest message on myspace.
a lesbian likes me? i make her nervous?

get a fucking life.

I'm 18 today.

I love reading ( Read more... )

I am sick as hell at the moment.

and it feels like everything is fogged.
I can't think straight, and I just want to bury my head in my pillow.

i am off to class.

sometimes i think about all the things you've done ( Read more... )

sometimes friends can be so meaningless.

especially when they say things that hurt you.

on a separate note;
school hasn't been so bad.

I think that if i dont go for a while, and then I do, i start getting nervous about it, but after one day, its better.

The only thing that sucks right now is my mother
and how miserable she makes me feel.