I hate how....well first I hate how I bitch and complain about this and feel this way quite often yet I do nothing to change it, I guess moving is going to help, I always told myself that I always wanted to keep in touch with my friends but honestly Id LOVE to say fuck them all and just leave without saying a word...which is honestly what I plan to ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm partially turning into something I've been fighting against for so long simply because its the easier path and it seemed to work for everybody else, ahhhh

As of today I am SCUBA certified

I think god is something that people use to avoid reality. I think faith allows people to reject what is right in front of our eyes, which is that this thing, this life, this existence, this consciousness, or whatever word you want to use for it, is all we have, and all we'll ever have. I think people have faith because they want and need to ( Read more... )

I have a question for everybody, do you dream in black and white or in color, something i read said that like 80% of people dream in black and white and I think the people that dream in color use a different part of their brain or something ( Read more... )

Suppose to have an interview, instead they were busy so I went to Barnes and Noble and got A Million Little Pieces by James Frey, and Acid Dreams by Martin A Lee and Bruce Shlain even though I'm in the middle of An Unquiet Mind but since I'm half way done after two days I figured it was time to get new stuff. I pretty much finished the stack of ( Read more... )

I forgot how My Little Ponys smelled, then when I smelled one of the ones I remembered, it smelled exactly the same as like 12 years ago.

I miss everyone already

This was THE best weekend I've had in as long as I can remember. Reconnecting with everyone again was awesome. I love you Chezly.

The dinner tonight was nice, they put a lot of Chez's My Little Pony things on the tables and on a side table with one of the castles she had. It reminded me of when we were kids and we would play with them and I always wanted the jeep to drive around in. Those were the days.

Alright so for everyone that is coming to the memorial this Sat. it's a celebration of her life and of her freedom. Chez wouldn't have wanted all the people crying and having sad things said so that's what her mom decided we are doing. Everyone that comes is going to have a chance to say something if they please but we are looking for happy ( Read more... )