That which does not kill me postpones the inevitable.  I know that is the ultimate truth, but ive been putting my mind to it lately.  I have no religion to tell me not to, so i have put my subconcious to the task of finding a cure for mortality.  I feel that would be the next step in our evolution.  Immagine, every 20 years, having your brain ( Read more... )

through logical regression, a methood that finds truth of a statement, logic itself would eventualy come into question.  Is logic true or false.  logic composed entirely of absolute truths can only be true because reality can only be itself.  all things outside of it, outside of physical reality is the human reality, or the Human Social Sphere.  I ( Read more... )

a coolant pump is not supposed to crack under regular circumstances, you have to overtighten or put too much pressure on it.... but guess what? mine did.  im pissed.

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so she invites me to stay the night, but her parents are away for only tonight, and come back tomorrow.  I wanted to badly, but theres too much to risk.  if i go there even in the day, her parents will start their bullshit.  if they come home early (they did once before)  her school finances may be at stake.  but she's sad that i didnt come over ( Read more... )

so ya, I work at the shisha capital of 4th ave ( Read more... )

so after a minor surgery with a local antisthetic that didnt work too well, im feeling better, just have to keep it drained ad clean... still pain but not as much.  I hate antibiotics, but i cant let the infection spread.  according to the doctor that would suck.  he was really cute.  tod me to quit smoking, i said no, he quoted health risks.  i ( Read more... )

last night my head wasnt screwed on right, tonight.... ever had a zit on the inside of your nose?  sounds discusting, might just be, but it has this amazing ability to form right on the nerve, and through the magic of the interconnected human nervous system, it causes an immense amount of pain through my entire head... and guess what... nothig in ( Read more... )

i need sleep but i cant.  I havent had a panic attack in years, why fucking now.  i need every facility to pull myself out of the negative.  its not fair that it abadones me now, i need to keepp controll.  i miss her so much i cant think straight.  ive been too close to losing her, and i keep snapping. i just need a job.  everything wi be ok then ( Read more... )

things get comfortable.  they just do.  "come live with us again, we'll pay for school and we both make enough so you wont have to work."  comforting.  as each quarter passes, money dissapears for one reason or another, and so i dont get to go to school.  "dont worry, we'll get it next semester."  that never happens. "I'd rather you not get a job ( Read more... )