is this all a mistake? what could happen? should i go through with it? i don't know what to do anymore... i finally think that i know what i want and then its not right for me to do it....

i wish someone can help me... but i think i have to take care of this by myself...

i have to...

ima fuckin little piece of shit... i make people's lives more unenjoyable... one way or another.. i should just fuckin die... but im too much to a coward... i hate myself ( Read more... )

its so hard for me to forget...

but i forget so much...

what the fuck man... i still get the shit that i used to get... im so sick of it... this is what makes me think that life really sucks... and not so worth it.. but then i just think that it'll all go away.. but what if it doesn't... i cant be 6 forever...

what a happy birthday to me..... blah

graduation is tomorrow... whoa

well, finially got the rejection letter from sfsu... and i feel like dirt about it. i feel like im less than i should be. i feel just bad... i mean i knew that i would be rejected cause i know im missin stuff but still.... and it doesn't help that my mom is so anticommunity college. yes i have to take course in a cc but y not just take it for 2 ( Read more... )

well so much for the college plan... i guess my mom miss heard me and thought that i would go to a state for 2 years then transfer to a uc which is fuckin stupid. so now she says i cant do the two tear at a jc...

well i got what i wanted... i told my mom about the 2 year plan and she said ok... i wonder what changed her mind.... i feel kinda bad about it tho but it was what i wanted to do in the beginning... i guess i just had high hopes... well, here goes

i try to do something nice and i get shot down for it. is it so wrong to want to do a nice thing for someone. i just don't understand. i wanted to feel helpful and needed. now i just feel like crap. im guessing nice doesn't cut it... whatever