While the days are still ticking by and I still havn't seen my Master (for three weeks now) I received a bright ray of sunshine this morning.
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Isn't it amazing how much of ourselves we put into people, places, and situations, and then, when we remove ourselves, we find it was only ourselves there and not the others ( Read more... )

I know I'm neglecting my journal. I plan on doing a full entry on Monday. Many things depend on how the weekend plays out. I hope to find out where I stand tonight. We shall see...

Well, things have been relatively quiet lately. All sign seem to indicate that Friday will be the last night I will be seeing Him at work. He was supposed to be gone already, but the negotiations for his new position have taken longer than he expected. I am trying my best to control my emotions about him leaving, but I find myself crying quietly ( Read more... )

Well, he put in his two weeks notice here at work yesterday. The good news is that he has a great new job that will pay him well, plus better benefits. The bad news is I will no longer enjoy getting to talk to him every night. I am thankful that he won't be moving out of state as he had planned earler. I just keep wondering how much I will be ( Read more... )

I sent him an email over the weekend:
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Nothing interesting actually happened, but I had alot of time to think. Usually that is a bad thing, but somehow it was quite refreshing for me. I've decided that I spend way too much time trying to figure him out and trying to decipher what his actions mean. The last time I was upset with him I lower my opinion of him, and this time has caused ( Read more... )

He hurt me again last night. He hasn't hurt me like this since last winter. I feel completely numb. Well, except for the angry purple welt on my ass. I almost feel like he's pushing me away. I almost left him last night. He's starting to take me too deep and my mind can only handle so much. I'm still hangin on though - for now. We'll see how ( Read more... )

Well it seems that my Master decided last night that I had waited long enough. As I drove behind him on my way home, my heart leapt when I saw him flash his turn signal at my exit.
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So he came in tonight, and my first response was to avoid eye contact. There were others around so it wasn't difficult. When they left he continued with his normal light banter until he got a smile out of me. Finally getting my work done for the moment I could advert his gaze no longer. As usual he saw right through me, and started mocking my ( Read more... )