sometimes i wonder if it's worth all the fighting and stress. i haven't laughed and really felt happy in a while. i hate even talking to my parents or family anymore because i know it will come up. i can't do this anymore, it's exhausting. i don't understand what is holding me back from just ending it. the past two months have been so shitty. i don ( Read more... )

i move out so soon! less than two months and i am free. ;sadi'fdag'fv i am so excited ( Read more... )

i am BORED. oh so bored at work. i am also broke. very very broke, which is why i have to be at work. my house is crazy right now. i am in the process of either gaining a brother and a sister or just one. since my uncle raymond died either his daughter, cierra or his son, seth or both are coming to live with us. craziness since for the last 17 ( Read more... )

beach time with alex and gunner was very fun. fighting with alex most of the day not so fun. time at the studio with alex, joshe, chase, and elliottttt = good times for all. i also love mike's brother josh cause he gave us some free weeds ( Read more... )

i can't sleep. i'm really bored. where is everyone tonighttt. better yet WHERE THE FUCK IS ELLIOT?!? i have to get up reallyyy early in the morning. tomorrow is alex's court date which i hope goes well. then he and i are going to the warped tour up in columbia. i hope we don't get lost. i'm excited for the music, and i'm excited for the fifth of ( Read more... )

things are so weird. i think i have fixed things in school. all should go well in that particular department if everything goes as planned ( Read more... )

today i finally broke the last straw with my parents. i didn't show up for work while simultaniously not having my cell phone. so, unfortunately work called my house, which they've never done, and then like dominos my parents called me, realized my phone was home, called alex whom i was with and when he didn't answer, called his dad. i managed to ( Read more... )

i'm starting to lose my voice again; which is absured considering i just regained it last week after it being gone for so long. i'm not a fan of being sick. i think my work is the cause of it all though ( Read more... )

right now ( Read more... )

i am really really tired. completely exhausted. i'd love to just sleep for a little bit.

also, there's this boy at my house right now. yeah he makes me pretty happy.