we grow up and we're learning all the time. we're told what to do and when to do it. this is where you eat, this is where you sleep. this is want, this is need. they are different. this is what blood looks like. this is what blood tastes like. and this, this is how it feels to bleed. these are lies and these are half truths. this is the only way of ( Read more... )

tonight i went shopping in ocean city and bought the most amazing candle holders in the entire world. i'm just sayin... they are fabulous. i also bought these shoes and oh my they are blue suede and almost 5 inch heels. pretty fierce. i also purchased some christmas presents for people and since he never reads this i can tell you that i bought alex ( Read more... )

i would really like to call you. just to talk. just to see who you've become and how you are doing. too bad, that was too long ago.

why can't i just forget and move on?

i love christmas time.

it's 3:21am and i still cannot sleep. my eyes are going to be oh so puffy in the morning. i wish i had someone to talk to right now. buttt cell phones are dead and people are sleeping. life will go on.

my life is falling apart. i'm not sure how much more i can take. i have always been the strong one, but damn when is it too much? first it was my dad and all his legal trouble, ps. his final court date is on monday so i guess we will finally know then. then all the shit with alex plus his cheating. now on top of everything my mom found a lump in ( Read more... )

i want to have a nice house of my own ( Read more... )

it's funny how when it all comes down to it, the people that were there for you in the beginning are still the people that will end up being there when shit gets well shitty. thank you two for listening and letting me call you when it was rediculously late in the evening. thank you especially for helping me realize everything, yet not being mean ( Read more... )

i hate you.
both of you.
plus joshe for being a douche.