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Sep 30, 2008 17:30

...Of course it's over now. Was there ever any doubt it would be?

That was absolutely ridiculous, in any case.

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darkdemonrose September 30 2008, 22:10:18 UTC
Stop it.

Would you rather live in isolation, afraid of everything? To experience love and feel pain is something, not nothing like you seem to want so badly. Even if it hurts, as you and your loved one cause each other pain, it must be...

It was fulfilling. And you knew that too, didn't you?

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darkenedred September 30 2008, 22:24:50 UTC
..........

No.

It's better this way. What is so unacceptable about that?! Fulfillment is far too idealistic if you ask me. To come out of the experience with nothing but pain in the end is just not worth the trouble!

If you want to put it that way... isolation is... yes, maybe I would rather live that way.

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darkdemonrose September 30 2008, 22:35:36 UTC
When you were young. When I saw you again--I was sad, and it hurt, but I was happy too--and that was worth everything. I would rather have that and die than live an empty life, devoid of anything, and you'd be foolish to choose emptiness.

...But of course, you've proven yourself to be such over and over again.

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darkenedred September 30 2008, 22:40:39 UTC
..........

No. I am not.

I don't want to deal with any of it... no more... I don't care what it is.

Even happiness hurts.

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versicolored September 30 2008, 22:39:24 UTC
You're being pretty open today, aren't you?

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darkenedred September 30 2008, 22:44:34 UTC
............

[pales]

That was-- I--

...No.

Forget what you heard. All of it.

((OOC: ...wtf was that icon. XD *uses different one*))

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versicolored September 30 2008, 23:13:26 UTC
Juudai.

... Why do you feel that way? So negatively about everything... [ a skip here. ] There are a lot of good things about you, too. About you, now, and you, the person that I remember. Don't you see it, too?

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darkenedred September 30 2008, 23:20:06 UTC
I don't know.

I just.

...I don't know.

No, I don't see it. I really, truly don't. Feel free to point some out to me if you're so inclined, though, because nothing comes to mind.

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blitz_n_chicks October 1 2008, 17:53:38 UTC
You know...when we first met...when you hadn't remembered the bad stuff yet....

I think that's your true nature.

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darkenedred October 1 2008, 22:20:08 UTC
Even then, I was naturally unsure about reaching out to others. My heart knew something my mind did not, and I reacted accordingly.

Now that I know, I can safely say that no, that was anything but who I really am.

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blitz_n_chicks October 1 2008, 23:35:18 UTC
*shakes head* No.

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darkenedred October 1 2008, 23:59:56 UTC
If you don't believe me... I don't know what else to tell you, then.

Believe what you want, I suppose, but it doesn't change the truth.

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