ya so.. its been like.. several different pills ive been thru since last updating.. HAHA U PPL SUCK!! sorry outburst.. anyways... what to write.. when there is nothing to tell.. well im learning piano? haha ya right just more like ya know just hitting random keys and hey ITS A SONG! but ya anyways.. hmm.. photoshop? downloaded? fun? manipulation ( Read more... )

EVERYBODY MUST COMMENT WHO READS THIS! ...please ( Read more... )

You know what? People suck ( Read more... )

man wtf today sucked.. i duno what im doing anymore.. things are crazy.. i havent been sad just.. i duno kinda just out of it just goin to my classes and not paying attention but not thinkin anything or doing something.. i just sit there n stare at a wall or something.. things are crap.. fucking keilah damn her to hell .. im upset with her but.. it ( Read more... )

people say the point of life is to enjoy yourself.. what if im not enjoying myself?? what then? we certainly dont benefit this earth in any fucking way.. we are just killin everything.. we kill eachother.. kill the animals.. and the earth.. its just sad.. just so ever sad...

fuck it.. its not worth it anymore.. everytime i tell them they pretend to listen maybe but dont even try after that..they seem to notice everyone but me.. i just sat there.. meaningless and i find myself alone again.. just like before but worse.. i cant find my place with them.. maybe its meant to be this way.. id ont give a shit anymore i cant ( Read more... )

fuck it.. its not worth it anymore.. everytime i tell them they pretend to listen maybe but dont even try after that..they seem to notice everyone but me.. i just sat there.. meaningless and i find myself alone again.. just like before but worse.. i cant find my place with them.. maybe its meant to be this way.. id ont give a shit anymore i cant ( Read more... )

today is a good day.. i believe my mother trusts me more now.. and its better now to not have to sneak around and lie all the time.. also i feel more than i have ever felt for mark now.. everytime i look at him i just think.. "wow.. i love him so much.. hes so beautiful, how lucky am i?" he is all that runs through my mind but its alright because i ( Read more... )

ive reached the absolute bottom.. i cant take anymore pain.. i realize i would hurt some people if i end my life and thats the only thing that stops me.. its not going to be enough anymore though.. i cant help it.. things are falling apart and theres nothing i can do.. ive never felt true joy or true happiness and it kills me.. for once i would ( Read more... )

I feel shitty.. i miss Mark soooo much.. i havent seen him or really talked to him since monday... i hope i can see him tonight but i doubt that i will since i can never get ahold of him. i think im finally realizing and actually believing that he does love me.. its hard to imagine loving me thought.. i always thought i was never that lovable.. ( Read more... )