for you...

[darkestxhour]

went to church. fuck, i felt like such a hypocrite. i was just sitting there thinking about the same things i've been thinking about since wednesday. it was all running through my head. i felt so shitty i almost started to cry. so i just sort of sat there and thought about it. i let it take me over and i was waiting, impatiently like a little kid

Comments

[kaorii_niiht]

The thought that when we die, we are just dead...is very comforting to me, don't know why but it is.

Did you want me to do a Matrix Layout for you or not?

[darkestxhour]

i find it terrifying

sure

[kaorii_niiht]

kk but that means you wont have the same scroller thingy...ill make all the overrites and you can just copy paste it into your modify journal section or w/e...

for your comments what do you want it to say?

something about the bending of the spoon?

[darkestxhour]

go on and be creative.

[ujiji]

You should come to Church with me! I hate going to Church... I sleep through it :( lol. And I'm sure God understands that it's only human to question beliefs :) I don't think God was going for mindless idiot when he created us. :)

[kaorii_niiht]

Kash,
I'm really not trying to be mean, but aren't you being a lil' hypocritical...or at least losing sight of what you had. Just a few 'journal entries' ago you were being thankful for all you had and now your obsessing over death :(. Shouldn't you be out enjoying everything that you love the most instead of sitting inside and wasting your life away thinking about what could happen?...I dunno just my opinion lyl babe.

[darkestxhour]

yeah i know what you mean. i'm being rediculously hypocritical, but i feel like this right now and i can't stop feeling this way. it pisses me off, but there's nothing i can do. i need to get over my "death" stage and then i can move on to appriciating life agian, which i do right now, but its just sort of been shoved into the back of my head. i can't just stop feeling sad. i have way to many questions that i need answered and its not like i was planning this and was all "oh, hey, today im going to be a hypocrite" because the news of something spurred an whole big thing for me. if i don't make sense now, talk to me tomorrow.

I set you Free

[anonymous]

Her hands were crimson red

Re: I set you Free

[anonymous]

damn i gotta agree. nice poem too.

[anonymous]

(diff anonymous person)

whether you discover your own "heaven" or not is up to you, not to your god. If he truely is the way they all say he is, he will accept that you must question him every now...that your a human...

ps. your own your way to athiesm. enjoy.