I can't remember if I had posted a few weeks ago about how hard things were for a bit. I did end up seeing the therapist again and it helped a lot just to unload my fears, stresses, depression, and issues. Then a few nights later I did talk to my husband about most of them, and felt much better. He has been more aware and has been pretty ( Read more... )

I'm still having a hard time this pregnancy and I know a lot of it is because I didn't really lose the weight last time, so starting out I weighed more. I'm not motivated to go to the gym, I barely dance anymore. Part of that is a cycle of when I do dance, I feel so out of shape, out of practice, and fat that I don't have a good time. That is ( Read more... )

I dreamt a lot last night. I know that dreams become more vivid while pregnant and that you can have more of them, but this one. I know that I was carrying around a baby (not newborn but younger than my son now). I know I felt alone, not that I was lonely but it didn't feel like I had a husband or someone with me, that I was doing this alone. I ( Read more... )

Had my doctor apt Tuesday and everything is good with the pregnancy. Heard the heartbeat, saw the baby moving even. My husband called a bunch of people that night (his brother, friends, etc) but I still haven't told anyone new. I will tell one friend when she gets back to town next week and really need to call another friend and tell her before ( Read more... )

So I told my husband on Christmas day that I was pregnant with a letter from "Santa" for our son. He appreciated the surprise of it and was very happy (although a little pissed that on the year he finally mangaed to surprise me with my present I topped him). My father was there as well. He did call his mom/sister and tell them and I had told my ( Read more... )

So I have nothing else to do but post today. It has been hard not to tell about being pregnant, but on the other hand I'm trying to keep a lid on my excitement. I've been holding the 8 week mark as something special (just like when I was pregnant with my son I held the 6 week mark as important. I just want to get to 8 weeks, have an ultrasound ( Read more... )

I have been dreaming a lot lately, had a school dream (signed up for a bunch of classes then missed the first few days of school, had to figure out what my schedule was and what to drop). In general that is a stress dream for me. Also had a few dreams about being pregnant and telling people or talking about it. I have to say it is hard not to ( Read more... )

I am pregnant again. I was torn this month in trying, as it puts my due date (Aug 22) at a busy time for work, but I didn't think it would necessarily work, and to be honest part of me was worried I wouldn't get pregnant again so I had to try and take whatever I could get. But I am now (expected period was 12/10, last period was 11/15. I ( Read more... )

Kind of sad, I was looking at my mundane journal and I posted once in May and once in September. I am such a slacker ( Read more... )

So I had my second therapist appointment this week. Not sure what to think yet. We talked about emotions in general and about the fight my husband and I had the weekend before. In talking about emotion words (she gave me homework to take this list and wright down times I've felt that particular emotion and also to check in with myself more often ( Read more... )