Well here it is, just a little past dew Turned 24 last monday, had a bad night, cause I hate to be alone, talked to Schiv, looks like his lil trip is all set, hope he has a good trip, on diffrent fronts, sometime I will have to confront him on a few things, not lookin forward to that. in other news work sucks, Gods this thing I call a life just ( Read more... )

here it is in a nut shell, life is cold crule and mean, love is over rated cause from what I see all it does is end up hurting you so here I sit, thinking of what to do next. So I think what I will do is nothing, teh guy I loved does'nt want a relationship with me least not one he can't turn off I don't have the ability to feel love anymore and not ( Read more... )

Well it's been a while , been talking to a close friend lately, doing the "pour your heart out" bit. Found out later that I'm not sure he gave a damn. in other news work sucks, had a inmate fight in my pod the other night, blood all over my top run, sent both the bastards to seg, one of teh officers I was with that night is just worthless ..... ( Read more... )

Ahh, what a day, the birds were singing, the grass was green and the flowers were in full bloom. And me in my usual blue mood, what can I say, it comes natural to me but then I don't really have much to look forward to work and a life.. well a psuado life spent Ol with people I have come to love but have no way of being with, people i fall in love ( Read more... )

Humm, forgot to add something, just me being a little down now, but I really hate to be alone, just wish for one night I could be with someone and be the only person that he is thinking about, gods my life sucks when ya step back and look at it. All I do is work, sleep work sleep ....

Ok ok .. the subject has little to do with this entry. Went to work today and was assigned to our max PC pod,(little suprize) and was given a deff guy and a cadet who thinks he's the last word in corrections. Well make a long story short I spent most of my night trying to keep my cadet from being killed, had 2 cells where people were not getting ( Read more... )

Well , Today was uneventfull, got to the prison and J unit was on lockdown. Cooper, Scheuere and myself sat in the office and compaired Oil-Field stories for 8 hours. Other than that work was dull. Got home after a long drive and got Ol and have been chatting with friends, and lovedones, all in all nothing really to report other than talking with ( Read more... )

Well was talking to a friend Ol and come to find out that someone I was hoping to be with has taken back up with his overbearing ex, Oh well I knew deep in my heart I was kidding my self, no way in hell a guy like that would want me, just hope he's happy with him, but then it also ends personal problems I have around him as such I always want to be ( Read more... )

Ok, let's see... been chatting with a few friends tonight, the one love of my life and some close guys, it's not always easy to talk to Rob, I have so many mixed emotions with him he's a great guy and I love him with all my heart but I have found my self trying to curb it down so I don't chase him off again. In other news I finaily broke down and ( Read more... )

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