"Replaceable / it's criminal Call me useless / just you wait Put me down and call it fate Broken bridges Wasted hate..." -"Replaceable", The Killers

It's funny how easy you can be replaced.

Even when you expect it to happen.

When it's laid out there, black and white in front of you. Just how little you meant to someone. How easy it is for them ( Read more... )

Tidbit work and random links are now at

darkhelmetsgirl.tumblr.com

Everything else is here.

I've succumb to the bloggy spell.

"And so it goes."

I hold my breath alot. The reaction of breathing deeply afterwards is strongly embedded in me. As much as I'm hurting right now, as much as she's hurting right now, I am relieved ( Read more... )

"This is how it works:

You're young until you're not,
You love until you don't
You try until you can't

You laugh until you cry
You cry until you laugh
and everyone must breathe
until their dying breath"

Fuck. How can life be summed up so simply and yet so completely.

Damn it's beautiful.

I only think about a belief in God when I think about death. It's weird, but not uncommon, I suppose. We are just arrogant and scared enough of losing ourselves that we wish and hope and pray that there is something more than just this life ( Read more... )

1. walking or traveling about; itinerant.
Dictionary.com
2. A learned fruit, wandering through the snow.
-Eurydice by Sarah Ruhl

Deep Breath, in, out.

Breathe. Breathe, breathe.

Dip yourself in the river and forget everything.

Stand under an umbrella and remember everything else.

Make your decision and decide it well.

And push it forward before the ( Read more... )

"Just run with me through rows of speeding cars"
"Speeding Cards", Imogen Heap

Haunting music actually haunts me.

I feel the music enter my bloodstream like a drug. It hits my heart, and my ears ring slightly. And then my head follows. I feel flushed, and fuzzy, incomplete. I feel like I'm part of something greater, but also completely smothered by ( Read more... )

"the road less traveled is often less traveled for a reason."

I'm still searching for the map to my life. I'm convinced that it exists, somewhere. There is a path laid out for me, and I want to know what it is. I want to make sure that I'm not fucking up the plan. Sure, I could go with the flow. I can make mistakes, pay for them later, and learn ( Read more... )

I have always been fascinated by the creation myths of our world. So many different stories, some painfully sad, some happy. And yet, all of them teach us of the redemptive power of hope that comes from the very earth from which we are formed. That hope, that redemption that is offered up to nothingness to create our world exist within our souls. ( Read more... )

At first

I wondered what would happen when I got to keep you.

But then I never did.

Then I was supposed to weep for you.

But again I never did.

Then I was compelled to yell at you.

The one thing that I did.

And then I was supposed to accept my loss.

But, of course, I never did.

Maybe I was supposed to follow you.

But no, I never did.

I told others that I'd ( Read more... )