man i mean shit you know i dont get why i dont ever see it nor act on it when i do but i'm seriously fucked up. julie was right about alot of things with me and how they just tear others down ( Read more... )

oh life is alright. not hating it but not fully satisfied but hey only one way to go and that's up ( Read more... )

it's wierd. it's like one day you feel it from your partner then the next you dont. and still things dont change. she loved me more then i did her then it flipped b/c of how foolish i was. my greatest fear is just losing her, her leaving me. i dont know if she believes that i truely am a committed man and truely love her and i know myself that i ( Read more... )

ok last entry was abit off. im fine. it was actualy just a sporatic feeling. i came off it in like 3 hrs. sorry for the scare

ok so im up right now at 5:20am and why? well not b/c of work no im feeling suicidal and about as bad as when i started. i cant help to have this feeling. i know why. im not happy and now im truely seeing what muneeb was going through his last days. idk what more to say. i dont get it i have money, i have a gf but that's having issues, my home ( Read more... )

you know life without muneeb really sucks. knowing this makes me think of what life would be like for others without me. am i important, does a day without me ever do anything for you? to be honest i feel empty without him. he was the only one who really listened to everything i had to say and it all made sense to him as it does to me. there hasnt ( Read more... )

i fuckin hate my life!

bleh

the 3rd is always a charm

ah so it's been forever since i updated this dear journal but i must say it hasnt been too much of a ride for me. heck this might be long, so maybe it'll be a ride for you ( Read more... )

to my dear friend long gone ( Read more... )

wayne wrote this for me. thanks my friend ( Read more... )