"any wife?"
"no."
"any children?"
"no."
"when you get this diamond, will you?"
"... no."
"i am confused."
"so am i, brah."
-"Blood Diamond"

---
..after all, the function of the Hero is self-sacrifice.

can we stop consuming? 
i feel like that is the only thing i know how to do right now.

fear, fear

the burden of the inevitable battle, the infinite toil of our own ( Read more... )

The Perfect Stranger
much more different than i thought it was
and i made me really sad.

forgiveness was the only thing that would end the violence
[yeah, i haven't finished my APE notebook yet. hopefully that will happen during break? getting lazier and lazier...]

but is there anything that really can end 'violence'?
is there anything that can end the ( Read more... )

so i have this feeling my parents have been reading my lj or something...
so i'm going to make my posts only for friends noww...

sometimes ( Read more... )

i need someone to keep reminding me
that this person they want me to be
and that person they think they want
is not who i want to be
not who i am

please, keep reminding me why i am the way i am
why i chose to be different
and what i chose

because that irrationality disease
it's chronic
and this is the only way to fight.

Somehow
i know being myself is not good enough

and i need some sort of proof to show you i am authentic
that i'm telling you the truth

you pull out my heart to prove to you that i have one.

i'm never any good at that.
maybe it's luck
maybe it's fate

but all i know is how to be myself
all i really know is myself
and sometimes even THAT comes into question.

we'll never know what's wrong without the pain
The Fray

kind of like McMurphy [before]

Sometimes being 'ok' is better to me than being 'good'
sometimes i think that's the thing i truly want.

the sun came out today
and i needed nothing else.

not so ready for halloween...
maybe i'll just a zombie. and wear lots of makeup.
it'll be fun :]

thinking about nursing homes and orchestra and crazy things like that
and i don't feel equal to them

i don't think i'm equal to anything
is it possible to be equatable to things?

bromden
laughed but was really just watching himself laugh
i think i get it too

but where do i go now?

i'm stuck in my own box too
it's just up in the sky somewhere
do i need an ( Read more... )

Let's get fucked up and die.
I'm speaking figuratively, of course.
Like the last time that I committed suicide,
Social suicide.
Yeah so I'm already dead, on the inside,
But I can still pretend.
With my memories and photographs,
I've learned to love the lie.

I wanna know what it's like to be awkward and innocent, not belligerent.
I wanna know how it feels to ( Read more... )