It's really hard for me to decide what it is that I want right now in my life. The more I think about it, the more I complicate things, and it's frustrating. I try to talk about it with people and all that does is make it seem like things are more out of hand than I really origionally thought they were. Is this really the best decision for me? ( Read more... )

I don't know why I feel so betrayed. But it feels like every day lately has been worse than the one before. It feels like I'm just getting torn to shreads by the world, with no remorse. I just don't know what to do. My heart is heavy and my head is hesitant to act. It feels like everything that I've done is in vain. Like there is nothing I can say ( Read more... )

I'm done with the stipulations and the speculations that everyone puts on my life. I'm tired of advertising my emotions for anyone to read. I'm tired of going through my life on a day to basis walking on eggshells in the worry that I might upset or worry someone with the things that I do. So with that, I'm finished. My live journal is now friends ( Read more... )

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People make such a big deal about being disappointed about the holiday season. They go through and get themselves all hyped up about stuff that they want to happen. When it doesn't happen, yeah, sure, it's depressing. At least you get to have those few weeks\days of hopefullness that expresses some of what the holiday season is. A season of hope, ( Read more... )

Holy jesus is it white out there..... hurts the eyes, lemme tell ya......

Look Sarah- it's not a FOB song! *shocked* The addiction is starting to lose sway!

So guess what- I did get to have a christmas this year. It came in the fact that things are finally starting to look a little brighter for my family. My mom just got a job this morning, she also got rid of the freeloader alan. Thank fucking god, ya know ( Read more... )

Nothing like a trip to the grocery store by yourself after a pretty cool day to really make you feel like shit ( Read more... )

So Verizon never fixed my cell phone bill..... and I just got a bill for 1400 this month. Fuckin wonderful. Now my phone is going to be of for a day or two, and I'm fucked... wonderful...abso-fuckin-lutely wonderful...