as i layed outstretched on the floor, i felt totally alone, even though i was surrounded by over two dozen people. lights dimmed, eyes closed, her voice. "its okay not to care for 10 mins". i feel my eyes well up, and realise that i am always thinking about someone else, caring for others instead of myself. was an amazing experience, and her voice ( Read more... )

beginning to breathe again ( Read more... )

old habits. so easily slipping back onto it after 3 years of nothing. i hate where i am right now. this place inside me. i should have seen it all coming. why would it be any different this time. never have i got approval before, so why now especially when its all so close to home. i just wanted to be happy. and once again, its all my fault ( Read more... )

everything i touch turns to shit. no matter what i do, no matter what i say, its wrong, fucked up, out of line. i cant deal with this. i want to go. leave everything. fuck everything off. trying so hard to say the what they all want to hear, and it all coming out wrong or taken the wrong way. him sitting there crying and so messy mentally. her, ( Read more... )

happy birthday my girl ( Read more... )

messy night. felt like a vampire was clinging on my neck all night, and no matter where i go, he could smell me and find me. got far too inibriated far too quickly. and as in true fannys style, it ended in tears. we decided to walk home, and it was the idea that we had come up with in months. just the two of us, heart to heart, tear for tear. i ( Read more... )

birthday started off fucking awesome. got amazing photo/memory album.. so much more. broke my heart and made me cry. she knows me too well ( Read more... )

today i saw a guys teeth get smashed out of his mouth onto the road. then almost bleed on my car. i felt sick. i wanted to get out the car and save him so much. fuck. was really disturbing. then i drove away ( Read more... )

today a saw a man dance across the street. and started pole dancing with a traffic light pole. it made me smile. i think it was something i really really needed. somehow, this crazy fucking guy helped bring me out of whatever it was i was stuck in ( Read more... )

you called and i missed it ( Read more... )