no suprises here ( Read more... )

i need to learn to: drink less; know when to stop; when to shut my mouth; when to accept defeat/rejection; when to keep my distance; appreciate the little things when i look around; how to let things go; and think before i fucking speak ( Read more... )

blood; violence; alcohol; tears; dancing; drinking; walking; running; pashing; crossing bounderies; emergency; hugging hugging hugging and not wanting to let go;
feeling so close, yet so far away.
so fucking confused i cant find which way is up.
she knows i fucked up, and i cant bring myself to look at her.
im trouble. and im hating it.

crazy. total craziness. he came. stayed, briefly. preview. hot hot hot. god im good. fuck ( Read more... )

wednesday night was dancing, pashing, dancing, drinking, dancing, dancing, dancing, old faces, regular ones, no-fucking-smoking-policy (told big bouncer man it wouldnt last.. everyone smoked in there anyway), red, whirlwind, irish girl, random chats, school boy, long-haired old guy (i still dont want to jump him), confrontation, ballerinas, it ( Read more... )

him. it was brought to my attention that all i do is hate on him in here. as i have explained, i only have been on here updating when i have been really pissed off. honestly, the good does outweigh the bad. all the time we have spent together has been amazing, whether it had been chatting, driving, drinking, in bed, chatting in bed, and all that ( Read more... )

do u see what i see.. why do we live like this? who are they, where are they, how can they know all this. why do we live like this ( Read more... )

one more day. then i can have a reprieve. im two breaths away from writing my resignation. im so far over that shit.. i think i was over it months ago. i love the place, i hate the fucking shit that inhabits it from day to day. two verbal fisty cuffs with two different people in as many days. not good ( Read more... )

what a night. so so much. i got him and you didnt. he chose me, pashed me, and he is so fucking hot. old school friend, turn into Fannys regular. hoping next week he will arrive. hmmm ( Read more... )

counting down the hours. night on the town again. suprise suprise. i think it is just becoming an assumed mission rather than a planned one of late ( Read more... )