I want it more than ever. I think I deserve it. I do.

Too much fucking waiting will drive me insane. The thought of dying without having reached my goals scares me.

How much I would give to explore and study fish in the Amazon. Just the thought makes me salivate.

Finally perfect weather to go about and doing my business...I love cold weather...I wish it was like this 24/7, 365 days a year. I hate heat, something that doesn't go well with my claustrophobia. I'll have to wait about two more weeks before the conditions become favorable.

I want to shout and scream and kick and declare myself free. I want to tell you so bad, but something is holding me back.

I think I love you.

And I think you feel the same way. Otherwise, you wouldn't be so open and interested.

Silly.

If I'm ever to have kids I want to use these name: Aniid Maliot, Miloslav, Liam, Siobhán, Jiri, and Sybil.

I was giving it a thought and I came to the conclusion that it would be a disaster...modeling. Really? I don't know...the suggestion baffled me. How in the world would I manage? So for the moment in will be a no, but you never know. It's quite intimidating.

So on Saturday it was officially confirmed that my great great grandparents were from Italy. We knew about it, but there's was no way to prove it. It feels great that the family tree is finally being put together. There's just so much more to find out. Hopefully I can take a trip to Mexico within the next two years and just find out more ( Read more... )

I've met someone beautiful. I guess it's true when people say that it's the inside that matters, well at least that's true for me. I'm just glad that there's someone who never fails to make me happy. I love you for it ( Read more... )

I don't know what to do, there's no way to run.

And this love letter. I feel helpless.

I never thought that throwing away stuff was going to turn out so therapeutic. I wish I could just throw everything out and just have a bed and a few things here and there. I'm getting there. I guess I'm doing it to get me ready in case I have to start all over, a whole new life, which is what I want at the moment. Brand new everything ( Read more... )

Both semester grades for psychology were raised from a B to an A simply for getting a 4 on my AP Test. This is great. Higher GPA! And of course, college credit ( Read more... )

Lately, I cannot help myself, but to relive my life as a child. I had the greatest time when I was a kid. I would say that I lived a life of luxury compared to that which I now live. Going on vacation every summer with my mom's family was probably the most memorable. Taking coach buses and the train to Manzanillo, a tradition that has been in the ( Read more... )